I figured it was finally time to change the theme. I really like this one. There were a lot of hiccups trying to get everything working properly.
I saw my doctor last week and was prescribed Lithium for my mood problems. It’s too early to tell if it’s going to help or not. I’ve also been having a lot of pain as I often do. I spoke to a gynecologist about the pain and that I think a hysterectomy would be best since nothing else is really helping. She’d be willing to do the surgery but I have to find out if it’s covered by insurance, and then my mom would have to fly out here to help me recover. Insurance coverage is iffy and I don’t know whether I want to go through with it. Honestly, surgery scares the shit out of me and the only surgery I’ve had was a tonsillectomy when I was a kid. That wasn’t a good experience. I guess I need some more time to think about it.
That’s all the updates I have for now.
I fell behind on blogging again because I got hit with bad depression. I’m still dealing with it (and probably always will). I’m still in therapy and will be seeing my doctor soon. I also had someone else come over and help but I don’t know how that’s going to work out yet because I just met him. The weather has also had some effect. Even though it doesn’t snow here, it got pretty cold for
My holidays were uneventful as they usually are. That’s about the time when this depression hit, around Thanksgiving. I’m feeling a bit better today, probably because I got a decent amount of sleep last night and I’ve only been sleeping a few hours a night for a while. I’m also trying to get back to updating my social media again. I’m taking it day by day I guess.
I just wanted to post a quick update since it’s been so long.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been to a show. The reason why I haven’t been going is that I lost my car and license due to my arrest in 2015. It’s much harder to get around these days and Lyft/Uber can get expensive. A lot of bands play at a venue that is about half an hour away from me, but this place was closer. It’s a new bar/music venue. When I went in, my anxiety was kicking into overdrive so much that I was really shaky. I was checking out the shirts at the merch table and wanted to buy one. I talked to Leroy (the vocalist) briefly and was surprised he remembered me because this band is from my hometown. After that, I ordered a couple of drinks to calm my anxiety a bit. I was sitting at a table by the bar alone and it felt kind of awkward. Some people talked to me but not a lot. I’ve always been somewhat of a loner.
After the other bands were done playing and War of Ages came on, it felt so good to be back at one of their shows because they’re always a good time. I was standing right up by the stage and was so close I thought I was going to get hit in the head with a microphone or a guitar. For the last song, everyone was going crazy and I was pushed and fell onto the stage. Some nice people helped me up. They were great as they always are, I’ve lost count the number of times I’ve seen them. Falling on the stage ended up hurting my ankle a bit and it’s still sore.
After the show, the band was hanging out at the merch table talking to people. I worked up the courage to approach them and talk a little and asked for a picture (sorry about how awful I look, I was really sweaty and tired).
It was a great night.
Tags : Shows
Today is my birthday. I spent most of it watching season 2 of Atypical on Netflix and doing laundry. I feel older physically because my health has not been great. I saw my primary care doctor yesterday, and I will have to go back to do a lung test because she thinks I may have asthma from all the years of smoking. I’ve told her I’ve tried everything to quit (Vaping, Chantix, Wellbutrin, patches, lozenges) and nothing’s working. She also said my depression needs to be managed better. I agree that it does, I have an appointment later this month for that. I’m in therapy weekly also and he acknowledges that I’ve had a really rough few years and that it would be hard to quit smoking when my mental health hasn’t been great. I also saw a nutritionist because my blood sugar was elevated. I know I need to change my diet but it’s hard to feel motivated with depression.
I know, not a good birthday post but it’s just like any other day to me.
During the past 2 months, I’ve had other health issues flare back up and my mental health isn’t too great either. I got hit with depression again so I haven’t cared to be active online and on social media.
A few months back my a/c unit died, then another old one was put in, then it started leaking from the vent and ceiling. A plumber was here from 5:30 PM to 11:30 PM cutting a hole in the ceiling, ripping out the old rusty unit and redoing the plumbing to put the new one in. I thought he was here way too late because I wanted to sleep. At least it’s much cooler in here than it was. Then someone had to come to repair the ceiling where the hole was, they also came late. Then another leak happened, this time it was from (presumably) the roof. I was told the roofing company has to come out and patch it. A puddle would form under my table on the floor every time it rained. I’ve been pretty frustrated with this apartment complex. Things don’t get done in a timely manner because of emergencies they’re dealing with. Many other people had to have their a/c replaced.
I’m hopefully almost done at the dentist. She kept telling me I need a night guard because I grind my teeth. It was really expensive and I really appreciated it, but I can’t stand it in my mouth. It’s so bulky. I have to go in for a cleaning on Tuesday. Hopefully, there won’t be any more work that has to be done.
I had the root canal finished on the other tooth. I was in the dentist’s office for 4 hours. The injections of Novocaine hurt like hell, and then it wore off in the middle of the procedure. It was very painful and awful, but now it’s done. I just need to go back in a couple weeks to get the crown put on there. I’ve also been feeling pretty sick and may have a sinus infection.
Last week I bought a new laundry detergent, it was the same brand but just a different scent. This caused a severe allergic reaction. My whole body was covered in hives, my lips were swelling, and I was having trouble swallowing. I started on Prednisone and anti-histamines right away. It almost landed me in the hospital. I definitely will not use that detergent again and have switched to a perfume and dye free detergent.
Yesterday I had the permanent crown put on the tooth that needed a root canal, and had been complaining for a few weeks of pain on the other side in another tooth. Nothing was showing up on x-rays. A filling was done on that tooth but the pain never got better. They x-rayed again and found an abscessed tooth and the dentist started the root canal but didn’t have time to finish it. I go back on Monday to have it finished. That’s two abscessed teeth within a month. It’s been very painful, to say the least. The antibiotics I was prescribed didn’t help much. Once the root canal is finished and the crown is put on that should be the end of that. Because of these infections, I’ve been feeling sick and have had a small fever. The dentist said I may also have a sinus infection.
I also had to have ultrasounds done on my full abdomen and pelvic region because I’ve been experiencing pain. Those all came back normal. My anxiety makes my stomach flare up. I had bloodwork done too and was told I have pre-diabetes and need to make changes to my diet.
What a nightmare this has all been. :'(
I went to the dentist again and needed a filling in another tooth. At least it wasn’t another infection. I go back again in the middle of June to have the crown put on the tooth that I had the root canal on.
I’ve been feeling sick for the past month or so and didn’t know why. I made several trips to the doctor for ear pain and gynecological issues. My ear was infected at one point so I was prescribed antibiotics and ear drops, and well as stuff for other infections. My ear looked better after the treatment but I was still in a lot of pain. I finally found out why last Monday. I had an abscessed tooth that was causing the ear pain and headaches, as well as chills and fever. The dentist tried to finish the root canal but couldn’t. I would have to see an endodontist. I went to the endodontist today and he found that my general dentist left a piece of an instrument inside one of the canals and it was hard to remove. They charged a lot for it. I wouldn’t think she’d leave a piece of an instrument in a canal on purpose. I have to go back to my general dentist for a crown and something might be wrong in another tooth. It’s always something. The problem is, I had horrible dental work done in my hometown that ruined my mouth. I don’t know why the problems under these old silver fillings aren’t being detected on x-rays.
There have also been things going on around here. First, the air conditioning unit died when it was hot, now there’s something wrong with the washing machine. Since the machines are still under warranty, the GE repair person came out and didn’t find anything. The washer has been making insanely loud noises. And of course, when he was here it wasn’t making the noises. So the next time I did laundry I recorded the machine so they can see what it’s actually doing. I’m not as worried about that as I am about the dental problems though.
I was looking up some blog prompts to post about something different. I liked the favorite childhood toy idea. My grandmother gave me a Fisher-Price dinoroar. These came out in 1992 when I was 8 years old.
It roars when you press the stomach. The original one my grandmother gave me got ruined because I threw it in the washer and ruined the thing that made the roaring sound. It had to be thrown away. A few months ago, I found the exact same one on eBay and got it. They are pretty rare now so I was glad I was able to find the same one. The dinosaur has special meaning to me and brings back good memories. I also found the original TV commercial for these here on YouTube.
Tags : Misc
Just a quick update to say that 10 years ago today I registered erin.nu. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. I had a lot of domains the past, but this is the one I stuck with.
I have been feeling lousy the past week so I made a doctor appointment (it was today). It turns out both of my ears are infected and full of fluid. This is nothing new for me, I’ve been having ear problems since I was a child. I have to take antibiotics for the infections as well as Flonase and allergy medication to get the fluid to drain. I went to the dentist last Monday for pain and my bite was off and that was fixed. I’m still having pain but it’s most likely my ears.
My depression also started getting worse. I don’t know if it’s because of this other stuff going on or medication changes. I’m also having insomnia still so that doesn’t help. Maybe because I’m just so tired all the time it’s making me more depressed. I’m on medications for that but sometimes it doesn’t work. It’s usually my brain not wanting to shut off at night. I’m in therapy trying to get my anxiety under control. I hope I start feeling better soon.