It’s that time of year again. It’s always hard not being able to see my family at holidays. It doesn’t even feel like Christmas. We don’t get snow here because it’s warm. When I lived in Pennsylvania we always had a white Christmas. I don’t miss the cold though.
I hope you all have a good Christmas.
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I haven’t blogged in awhile because of everything that has been going on. I’ve been making preparations to move, I have to be out of this apartment by February 1st. I also got really sick with a stomach virus and was stuck in bed for a few days. Then I found out at the dentist that I need a crown. I’ve had a toothache for awhile and should have gone in sooner but I’ve been busy with other things. It turns out that a filling in my molar cracked and there’s a big cavity. If I don’t get this taken care of I’ll need a root canal so I go in on the 2nd so they can start working on that.
My dad hasn’t been doing well and has been acting really strange so my mom took him to the doctor and they did bloodwork. They said he was dehydrated and had to go to the emergency room. Based on how he has been acting they did a chest and brain scan. Today I found out he has fluid in his brain and has to go to the Pittsburgh hospital. I hope everything will be ok.
I haven’t really been thinking/worrying about the holidays because I’m so overwhelmed with what’s going on and holidays are pretty much like any other day to me. The main focus right now is packing to move in time.
I filed a case with eBay about the items and they told me I needed to go to the post office to see how much it would cost to send the items back. I would also need new packaging because they packed it so tight it all tore when trying to get it open. I decided to close the case. I don’t have a vehicle so it would cost me money to take an Uber or Lyft to the post office. When I needed to ship something I’d just get bubble mailers from the store within walking distance and have the mail carrier pick them up. It’s just not worth it. When I sold on eBay if a buyer had a problem with an inexpensive item I just refunded them and told them they didn’t have to send it back to me. I’m not sure why this seller is so hell-bent on wanting this total junk back. eBay didn’t even seem to care that they’re selling stuff like this. I will make sure I am more careful next time. I at least left the seller a negative.
Yesterday one of my mental health workers took me to go look at an apartment. Maintenance was still working in there but I didn’t like it at all. The kitchen only had a tiny sink, a few cupboards, no counter space, a small refrigerator and a small stove. I don’t know where a microwave or anything else would go. Most of the cookware would have to go in a closet. The bathroom also only had a shower and no bathtub. For as much as they want in rent, I won’t be getting much of anything. The office at the place I live now said if I wanted to stay here (I don’t, but it may be my only option) I would have to move into a remodeled apartment. Staying in this one is not an option. I don’t even like the remodeled ones because the new kitchen takes up half the living room. That means some furniture would have to go. The manager said no because they want to remodel all the apartments and they can’t do that if they let people stay in the old ones. The other places I wanted to see don’t have anything available for me to look at and don’t know if they’ll have one ready to move into when my lease is up (January 31st). I’m not sure what I’m going to do, it’s just stressful.
I’ve been posting about this on Twitter, but I’m just mad and frustrated at this point. I bought a bathroom set from a seller on eBay and got scammed. What actually arrived was so terrible I couldn’t even use them. I contacted the seller and they offered a 30% discount without returning the items. If I wanted a full refund, I’d have to send them back. Why should I have to pay to ship them back when they weren’t as described? The seller also suggested I donate or sell them. Nobody is going to want this garbage. They’re getting a ton of negatives with complaints about how awful the items are and that they were scammed. I tried opening a case with eBay and PayPal and I guess I need to wait for the seller to resolve it which I don’t think they have. I’m going to try to fight this and get my money back but I don’t know if I will. I don’t know why they allow people to sell total crap and not take responsibility for it. It’s not so much the cost, it’s the fact that they falsely represented the items and don’t seem to care. If eBay and PayPal won’t help, I guess it’s a lesson learned and I’ll be more careful with what I purchase. It’s still really frustrating though.
The first place we went to looked pretty nice but the manager wasn’t in and there wasn’t a vacant apartment available to look at so the lady gave us a paper with prices and everything. The second place was pretty small but the office was closed (12:30 is kinda early to be closed) but there were papers outside the door for people to take with prices. I told my mental health worker that we should have called ahead, but she said she’d do that for next time. Obviously, without looking at actual apartments I don’t know which one I’d want to move to. I like the location of the second place because it’s near downtown but it’s more expensive. I still have time yet to find something.
I hate how the cable company has a monopoly in this area. They’re raising my internet bill because the promotion I signed up with has ended. They added a new promotion but I’m still going to be paying over $20/month more. It looks like the only other option is DSL and I don’t really want that. They already made enough people mad for doing data caps on internet and they’re raising prices. They know they can get away with it because there aren’t really any other options.
Tags : Misc
Therapy has been going ok, but trying to get my other worker to do what she’s supposed to is really difficult. She’s supposed to be helping me find an apartment because I’m having a hard time doing it myself. The first time she was supposed to take me she said something was wrong with her laptop and the car didn’t get reserved. The second time I tried to call her and got a message that I was blocked. She called me from her personal phone to tell me that her work phone and laptop were stolen out of her car and she should have new ones soon. Why would you keep electronics in a car to begin with? Today she completely blew me off and didn’t show up and didn’t call. I understand that things happen but this is the third time I’ve been canceled on. I may have to contact the person in charge of the program and request someone else because nothing is getting accomplished here. I’m just getting really irritated.
I also missed my psychiatrist appointment because my case manager was out for a week. I wish I never got arrested and lost my car and license because what a pain it is to get anywhere and get anything done. :grr:
Tags : Rant
I met with my new therapist today, he seems nice. Hopefully, he will be better than the last one. The last one kept making inappropriate comments that made me feel uneasy and I had to stop going. What’s even better is that he comes to my apartment instead of me having to run to an office. Today was just going over goals and updating my service plan. He said he wants to meet with me once a week which is great. The other places I have gone were only able to offer me a half hour of therapy once a month because of their caseload. I also have someone else helping me find another apartment. We found a couple of places to go look at. I’ve looked up a lot of places online and she has too. The reviews are pretty bad but I guess I’ll have to go see for myself.
AOL announced that they would be discontinuing AIM. I remember using AIM to keep in contact with classmates, friends, people from other countries. I would use song lyrics for away messages and tried to have the coolest buddy icon and profile. I had AOL dial-up before that and so did everyone else at school. There weren’t any social media at that time so everyone tried to have the coolest screen name and profile with different colors and styles. The chat rooms were entertaining too. I would get instant messages from guys asking ASL or if I wanted to cyber. Those were the days.
Today I met with a lady from mental health services and she is going to help me find another apartment. She already had a place in mind but didn’t remember the name of it. I told her everything that has been going on during the past 5 years I’ve lived here. I also told her that all the problems (mainly with the pests) have made my depression a lot worse and that I need to move for my own well-being. I moved to a different unit last year in this complex because the pest problems were bad in the original unit I lived in. I thought things would be better in the new unit, but they aren’t. Obviously, most of this place is infested.
I meet with her again next Friday and she said she’ll have a list of places and we can go look at them. My lease isn’t up until the end of January, I’ll see if I can get out of it early but I might not be able to. If worst comes to worst I’ll have to stay until then. I renewed for a 6 month lease in August, not knowing the pest problem would get even worse. People around here don’t treat me very well either. I’m glad I didn’t sign a year lease. I’m also going to do in-home counseling. Now that I’ve gotten some help, I feel a bit more hopeful that I can get out of here and start feeling better. I won’t if I continue to stay. It’s time to move on to better things.
I saw my psychiatrist today and he prescribed a medication that’s used to treat Bipolar. I don’t know if I’m Bipolar or not but I keep struggling with mood problems and depression. I’m also on other medication to help with mood. Most of it is situational. Since I haven’t heard from the navigator who was going to help me find another place, I’ll have to try to get in touch with the lady who did the intake.
That person who stole my card information last month is still causing trouble. They tried making a purchase from iTunes, and I got an email saying an order is ready for pickup at a Toys R Us in Indiana. The old card was closed and has been closed for over a month but they are still trying to use it. I called the bank and Toys R Us and neither were of any help. I wish this person would get caught but that probably won’t happen. Since all that happened, my email spam folder has been filling up with thousands of porn emails. That wasn’t happening before so it wouldn’t surprise me if that person signed me up for all of that. :wornout: There are some really messed up people out there.
I’m 34 today. I’m starting to feel old. I don’t really have any plans today but I’ll probably be drinking. I found a small round birthday cake at the grocery store bakery marked down to $4.99, so I bought it. My mom got me a Yankee candle (I love those) and some other little things. I’ve said this before, birthdays aren’t really a big deal anymore the older I get. I’ve been under a lot of stress because of my current living situation, but today I’m going to try not to stress too much. :grr:
I miss birthdays when I was a kid, spending them with all the family and especially my grandparents. They spoiled me and I loved it. My grandparents died, so birthdays and holidays aren’t the same. I have some old pictures of me with my grandmother on my birthday. Here are some pictures of me with my grandmother on my 2nd and 5th birthday:
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