December 23rd, 2019 
10:30 amI haven’t blogged in a while because I received some devastating news last month which is making my depression worse. My mom was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer that has metastasized into her liver. At first, she was coughing a lot and went to the doctor to get a chest x-ray. They told her she had to go to the hospital because her lung was filled with fluid. The hospital there couldn’t do much so she was sent to Pittsburgh. They had to put a tube in to keep draining the fluid. She was in the hospital for over a week because of the lung fluid, then had to start on chemo. The type of cancer is really aggressive and there are 2 stages to small cell lung cancer: limited stage and extensive stage. It’s extensive stage because it has spread. I’m really worried about her because my grandma had lung cancer that metastasized to her brain and she died. 😢
I really need to stop smoking 🚭 That was the cause of the cancer in my mom and grandma. It’s so hard though, I don’t know how I’m going to do it with all the stress I’m under. I may have to go back to vaping but even then it didn’t feel like I was getting enough nicotine and gave it up.
I’m not doing much for Christmas. I did do some 🎄 decorating in my apartment which I haven’t done in years. I plan on baking some cookies too. 🍪
I’m Erin, a 37 year old childfree woman with autism living in Pennsylvania. I enjoy blogging, movies, reading, journal writing, the paranormal, Android, The X-Files, Stranger Things Deadmau5, metal ducks & birds, Hello Kitty, and Pusheen.
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The holidays are hard for a lot of folks unfortunatly. This year hasn’t been the merriest for me either. Stat strong, Erin. Love ya, girl
Thank you ❤
I hope your mum will recover soon. Stay strong and hopefully 2020 will be a better year. Merry Christmas!
With the type of cancer it is she may not recover.
I’ll keep your mom in my prayers and healing thoughts, Erin. I lost my dad to leukemia in October this year, so these weren’t happy festivities. Life goes on and all, but nothing fills those gap. I hope and pray that your mom’s going to win over that beast. *big hug*
I know I haven’t been commenting or even sending you that little card for a long time… what? years? My health has deteriorated and I only started to see doctors in November for my neurological and psychiatric issues. PTSD from dad’s death didn’t help, sadly.
But we keep strong!! ♥
Feel free to email me anytime if you need a friend who understands, Erin.
Much love,
Luana
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Thank you ❤