I haven’t blogged in a while because I received some devastating news last month which is making my depression worse. My mom was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer that has metastasized into her liver. At first, she was coughing a lot and went to the doctor to get a chest x-ray. They told her she had to go to the hospital because her lung was filled with fluid. The hospital there couldn’t do much so she was sent to Pittsburgh. They had to put a tube in to keep draining the fluid. She was in the hospital for over a week because of the lung fluid, then had to start on chemo. The type of cancer is really aggressive and there are 2 stages to small cell lung cancer: limited stage and extensive stage. It’s extensive stage because it has spread. I’m really worried about her because my grandma had lung cancer that metastasized to her brain and she died. 😢
I really need to stop smoking 🚭 That was the cause of the cancer in my mom and grandma. It’s so hard though, I don’t know how I’m going to do it with all the stress I’m under. I may have to go back to vaping but even then it didn’t feel like I was getting enough nicotine and gave it up.
I’m not doing much for Christmas. I did do some 🎄 decorating in my apartment which I haven’t done in years. I plan on baking some cookies too. 🍪
I’m Erin, a 36 year old childfree woman with autism living in 🌳 Pennsylvania. I enjoy 💻 blogging, 🎬 movies, 📖 reading, ✏ journal writing, 👻 the paranormal, Android, The X-Files, Stranger Things 🎶 Deadmau5, metal 🦆 ducks & 🐦birds, Hello Kitty, and Pusheen.