I’m in one of my depressed and completely bored out of my mind moods. I always feel worse around the holidays because I don’t get to see my family. I don’t think I’m even decorating for Christmas this year, what’s the point? Nobody’s coming over. It’s also too much work to just have the stuff up for a month. Plus, my closet is such a mess it is packed to the ceiling with stuff and I don’t think I could get anything out anyway.

It sounds like my mom won’t be coming out in the spring (she was supposed to come out in October, but her back problems prevented her from doing so). She says she can’t afford it because she has to help me out with my dental issues. She bought a new house so that could also be why. I feel so bad, but I don’t have insurance. I suggested we video chat, but she said she got a new laptop and doesn’t know if it has a camera or how to do it (she’s not very good at technology).

When I’m close to running out of medication, I’m calling my doctor to see if I can come in and get some different medication, I need to start feeling better.

I’ve also been very active on my Tumblr lately, I think I’m addicted.

I don’t know if any of this is stupid or makes sense but it’s what’s going through my head right now. All my thoughts are jumbled right now.

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Erin

I’m Erin, a 38 year old childfree woman with autism living in Pennsylvania. I enjoy blogging, movies, reading, journal writing, the paranormal, Android, The X-Files, Stranger Things Deadmau5, metal, EDM, Hello Kitty, and Pusheen. .y.at