Edit: I’ve done some thinking and told her we can’t be friends and I don’t want her in my life anymore. I have to think of myself and my mental health. Seeing her and being around her will not help me move on. She’s probably angry at me, but I have to do what I have to do.

The talk didn’t go so well, things got heated and I burst into tears. I’m feeling really hurt but we’re going to try to be friends. I still don’t like the situation but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m a very emotional person and it’s hard for me to get over things. Hell, I still think about my ex-boyfriend a year ago and get sad sometimes. Breakups are not good for me mentally so I think I should stay single, because every relationship I’ve been in hasn’t worked out. I’ve never been good with people because of my Asperger’s so I tend to upset people a lot because I say exactly what I’m thinking. The fact that I have no anti-depressant doesn’t help either, stupid insurance company won’t cover it. I’m trying to deal with the whole situation the best I can, but sometimes I get mental breakdowns. I need to try to focus on other things to keep my mind off of it.

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Erin

I’m Erin, a 37 year old childfree woman with autism living in Pennsylvania. I enjoy blogging, movies, reading, journal writing, the paranormal, Android, The X-Files, Stranger Things Deadmau5, metal ducks & birds, Hello Kitty, and Pusheen.