I know I’ve been ranting a lot lately, but I’m just so fed up. When I get to Arizona I have to work on getting my license. I don’t really know how I’m gonna do it with my disability, but I’m sick of it taking over my life and ruining everything. I’m tired of relying on others to drive me, I want to get around on my own. I’ve already failed the computer test in PA at least 3 times, I’m really gonna have to study the book in AZ, even though it might take awhile.

It’s hard when you have negative parents putting you down and destroying your self confidence. I’ve brought up that I wanted to get my license and my mother said “that’s never gonna happen”. Yeah, that’s really encouraging. If I wasn’t raised in such a negative environment as a kid I probably wouldn’t be so negative about things today. I’ve been put down most of my life, no wonder I feel like I can’t do anything.

Don’t know why Mac users are always quick to bash the PC. If you have the money for one, good for you, but not everyone does. PC’s are a lot more affordable. I’m able to go online, pay my bills and do what I need on my PC just fine. Just because you own one doesn’t make you better than anyone else, it’s just a computer.

Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t think it’s acceptable to make someone with painful cavities wait almost a month to get them fixed. They’ve been really bothering me, but I have to wait until next Monday. They just take on way more patients than they can handle, so people that really need to get in sooner can’t.

I’m rather irritated, I ordered a case for my phone on Ebay, it finally got here today (they claimed fast shipping, but it was slow) and the back has chipped and bubbled paint. Their return policy is return for an exchange or store credit, but I’m not paying to ship it back, it wasn’t worth much. I probably should have ordered it from the one site I order accessories from instead, but found it cheaper on Ebay. I guess I see why they have some negative feedback. They should have checked that nothing was wrong with it before sending it out.

I really hate not being able to drive and having to ask for rides. I asked my dad if he could take me to the ETID show and he said yes, I don’t see why it’s a big deal. It’s about a half hour away in a suburb of this town. They had to change upcoming shows to the venue there because of a “change in guard” whatever that means. If I didn’t really like them I wouldn’t care so much. I won’t be able to see them at Warped Tour because they don’t join until July, and the date I’m going to is in June. If they had a bus going from here to there or something I’d take it, but they don’t. It would be at least $50 each way for a cab, and I can’t afford that. If I was able to get a driver’s license I would, but I can’t. This area has hardly any transportation options. I don’t ask for rides every day, or ask for much. They will help my sister out all the time by paying her rent for her and everything else, doesn’t make sense. Shows are pretty much all I have to look forward to most of the time. I get out once a week to get groceries, that’s pretty much it, unless I have a doctor appointment or it’s a special occasion. It sucks.

I got a text message from T-Mobile saying they hope I’m enjoying my handset and included a recycling bag to recycle my old phone if I’m not using it. I did get one when this phone arrived. Recycle a $200 ($400 retail) phone? Are they serious? I sold it on Ebay and got most of my money back that I paid for it. I guess they don’t want you to do that, but too bad, I’m not throwing away something that expensive.

USPS tracking is useless. Whenever you enter a tracking number it just says it’s shipped, it doesn’t give any other info, and never seems to update. I think it only updates when it’s actually been delivered, sometimes it doesn’t show that until several days after it’s been delivered. At least UPS updates you and tells you where your package is, what time(s) it departed/arrived at what city, and an approximate delivery date. Sure, they cost more, but at least their tracking isn’t a joke.

MySpace perverts: I will most likely ignore your messages/comments or block you. I have no idea why you would send me things asking me if I “wana fuk” or whatever else. I’m not at all interested. Go away.

I hate when I try to IM someone and they never respond. It happens a lot. If you’re busy, why not put up an away message? How else am I supposed to know you’re busy?

I was so upset today when I got out of the car and my brand new phone fell out of my pocket and onto the pavement, leaving scratches and dents. I’ve only had it for a few weeks and it wasn’t cheap. I should have gotten a snap on case or something for it, I think I will now in case it happens again so it doesn’t get any worse. I’m glad I had a screen protector on it, so the screen didn’t get scratched and nothing is damaged that I can see. I hate how clumsy I can be. All my phones have gotten scratched up but I was trying to keep it nice.

I don’t get why people constantly post lyrics as their Facebook status. What’s the point? Most of the time you just confuse people. It’s a status box, not a lyric box. I don’t care if people post lyrics, but if every single one of your statuses are lyrics, that’s really annoying, sorry.

I'm so mad

I just got back from the dentist, I have more cavities I’m going to have to go back and get fixed. It never fails. Even though I brush twice a day, floss, and use that protecting mouth wash I still get them. They said maybe I’m having too much sugar, I try not to, but I have to have some regular soda/juice sometimes to get my blood sugar up. I’ve had problems with my teeth since I was a kid, I’m just tired of cavities, my mouth is already full of fillings. Why couldn’t I just have had normal teeth without so many problems? Argh.

Wtf?

So I had to pay shipping to ship the phone I sold on Ebay, came to about $11. I thought that was a bit much but whatever. I get an email from UPS today saying they had to adjust it and I owe $2 and some cents more. I don’t know why, since I’m sure I filled everything out correctly. $13 to ship something is just outrageous to me.

Fangirls drive me crazy. Some of them are so obsessed sometimes it’s just creepy and annoying. I’m a big fan of TDWP (I’m sure a lot of you know that already), but they are people too, and there’s no need to get all crazy and weird. If everything you ever talk about is related to that band, if you add all their family members/girlfriends/boyfriends on Facebook/Myspace, that’s a bit odd, unless you actually talk to them. They probably have no clue who you are. Stop being creepy.

The Audition show was amazing! I had a great time. I’m so tired though, I got there around 6PM and they didn’t play until around 10. It was worth it. I don’t know what was up with the kids that showed up really drunk, they were falling over everywhere. I guess they all go and get drunk or high before the show since it’s not allowed in the venue. Sorry, but it just isn’t cool to be falling all over people, passing out on the floor, and slurring in people’s faces, you just look ridiculous. I doubt any of them were even legal. Not sure why they’d even let them in the venue if they were that drunk in the first place. I’m glad I quit drinking years ago, there’s not exciting or cool about it.