I’m pretty mad right now, I need to vent

Out of the blue, I received a text from the woman I used to be friends with that I cut out of my life because of how she treated me. She said “what, you don’t talk to me anymore?” I was like no, not anymore after how you’ve been treating me. The last time we spoke, she said she was never really my friend. That was the last straw for me. She says she can’t remember saying that. How convenient, I remember it clear as day. All she had done was accuse me of messing around with her boyfriend (who I have absolutely no interest in), lie to me, and use me. At least 90% of the things she’d talk to me about were complaints about said boyfriend. I think she did the right thing leaving him, she would always complain about how horrible he was to her. The only reason she wants to get back with him is because she doesn’t like where she’s living now. I really don’t know why she would want to get back with him, doesn’t make any sense to me. She left a voicemail trying to make me feel bad for her, which is what she often does. She just started talking to me like nothing even happened. She has a very unhealthy obsession with him, and it affected our friendship. All this time, I was just being too nice and kept forgiving her when she didn’t deserve it. I’m not going to play her games anymore. I had to block her number again because Verizon’s blocks only last for 90 days, and the block expired. Since she was blocked for that long, I really don’t know why she would still be trying to contact me. If this doesn’t stop, I’ll have to go the legal route to get her to stop bothering me because she just won’t listen.

Irritated with my card company and other stuff

Update: The card company responded on Twitter, and said they would have someone follow up with me. That never happened, so I made the switch to NetSpend even though I said I wouldn’t, they just offered so much more so I think the fee will be worth it. So long, CARD.com. Pretty sad they couldn’t even respond to me to fix a simple issue.

I also heard back from the Amazon seller, they issued me a refund for the one towel in question.

I’ve had a prepaid debit card for almost a year now. I have been trying for several months to update my email address to no avail. I called support and they told me it couldn’t be done over the phone, and that I would have to email them. I’ve sent several emails over the past few months and they won’t respond. I decided to try to take it to Twitter, and they haven’t responded to me there yet either. I might have to look into a card with someone else. I was looking, and the only one I found that would work for me was an American Express one. I don’t know if everyone takes that, I know my hair salon doesn’t. Years ago I had a card from NetSpend, but canceled it because there’s no way around the monthly fee. With the card I have now, they waived the monthly fee because of my direct deposit. I would also prefer a card with more security, because all they require is an email and password to sign in. When I lost my card one time, it took a full week to receive a new one. When someone stole my debit card number and made unauthorized charges one time, I canceled the card and it took a full week to receive a new card, and they charged me for it. I would prefer a Visa or MasterCard, with security and support who will actually respond.

Another thing I’m irritated about is that I bought a bath towel set from an Amazon seller, and after one use, one of the towels looked like it had been bleached in two areas. It took me awhile to figure out what caused it, and it’s apparently my face wash. It has never stained other towels, so I guess the towel set was not good quality. I emailed the seller and have yet to receive a response. I guess I need to find a different face wash too.

Enough is enough

I’ve blogged about this before in the past, but am doing it again because I need to get things off my chest. I’ve had this “friend” for over 2 years who has never treated me that well. She had been dating this really awful guy for that long, and finally ended it with him. Then she jumps right into a new relationship and I guess I was kind of irritated because that really isn’t very sensible so I said something about it. She got really mad as she often does, and accused me of sleeping with her ex boyfriend. Whenever she gets mad, she accuses me of things I didn’t do and have no intention of doing. For some strange reason, she seems obsessed with me doing things with him when I’ve told her I don’t know how many times that I’m not interested in him. A little while ago, she called me screaming that I did something I didn’t do. She said that I was never really her friend and I decided to block her. She even had the audacity to call my mom to try to drag her into it. My mom really doesn’t care about what she has to say and has never liked her.

I’ve given her way more chances than she’s deserved, I’m honestly done. She was never a “friend” because she would ignore me, lie, and make accusations. I have no idea why I’ve kept her in my life as long as I have. She obviously has some sort of issue she needs to work out if she’s lashing out all the time. I’ve been under a lot of stress and really don’t need this in my life.

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Tired of being treated poorly

Edit: We’re no longer friends again.

My friend and I made up, she admitted to going through some personal things and that wasn’t her talking and she messed up.

Last night there was an apartment cookout and none of them wanted me there. Apparently they don’t like that I don’t talk much, or don’t like me, or whatever. I have a neurological disorder called autism (people should know about this by now with all the autism awareness out there), and it has to do with social impairment and other things. People shouldn’t hate me for that or hold it against me. I’ve been treated like shit my whole life and I’m getting really tired of it. I have other problems as well that are difficult to deal with, but people are just not caring enough to understand and it’s sad. :cry:

I don’t feel I deserve to be treated this way, I’m human too.

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Lost my friend

My friend got in my face and yelled at me for texting her asking when she’s going to be home while at a friend’s house. All I wanted to do was see if she could hang out. Now she’s being a bitch to me. I don’t need any of this so I blocked her from Facebook and texting me. She spends so much time with her other friends that she forgets about me and it’s not a good feeling. She also makes me come visit her or answer her texts constantly when I don’t want to because I want time to myself (I’m autistic and this is something I need, to be alone). I was also sick of her using me.

I just can’t deal with it anymore and I think it’s time to move on. If she can’t be understanding, then I can’t keep doing this. I’ve always had struggles making and keeping friends because of mental health problems, so maybe it’s for the best. I’m just really angry and hurt. Now I don’t have anybody, which is fine because I can make it on my own.

Un an unrelated note, please consider signing up for an account to read my private posts. I also got a new e-mail address: hellokittyerin@yahoo.com.

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Nothing is going right

Where to start…well, I’m in love with someone I can’t have, my mental illnesses are acting up, still having financial difficulties, and just feel overall pretty terrible. It’s hard to handle all this stuff, it really wears me down.

I’ve been struggling with things since childhood and now in adulthood it’s gotten worse. Since it’s gone on this long, will things ever get better? I often ask myself this. If you’re the praying type, please pray for me or keep me in your thoughts, I’d really appreciate it.

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Update on ceiling

The maintenance guy came today to finish the drywall, and it looks bad. He also didn’t fix my faucet right. So I went to the assistant manager and complained. The head of maintenance came over and fixed the faucet properly and took pictures of the bad drywall job. To top it all off he used the wrong color paint. Head of maintenance said he’s going to redo it all next week himself and even took pictures. That one maintenance guy does crappy work and if he’s not careful he’s going to get fired. I’m not happy with it and all the inconvenience it has caused me.

At least if the guy in charge does it, it’ll be done right this time. Hopefully.

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More maintenance problems

Ever since I moved in here, I’ve been having nothing but problems with leaks, things not working, etc. This time I had another leak, in the bathroom ceiling. Maintenance came yesterday to cut a hole in the ceiling to see where the leak was coming from. They checked upstairs and found nothing. The leak appears to have stopped. They said they’d be back on Monday to check on it (they never show up when they say they’re going to). So I have to have them come over and look at it, then I’m going to need the drywall repaired (which takes forever, because I have to make several complaints for them to fix the whole thing properly). I have OCD and it’s bothering me. :angry:

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Here’s a picture of the hole. I hope since they have new staff they can get this fixed properly and in a timely manner.

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Random things

I finally got my shoes! Took USPS long enough to fix the error in my ZIP code.

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I wanted something black and simple to better go with my outfits, I like them.

I was surprised to call this morning to get a doctor appointment on Monday, usually because of their policy they will only schedule for 24-48 hours. I did fill out a complaint form their website and mailed it to the main office so maybe that helped.

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I guess I’m not getting my shoes

An update to this post, two people I’ve spoken with at USPS have lied to me. One said it would be shipped back to the company, another said they’d get the package to me. The package has been going back and forth from West Sacramento to Vallecito California since last week. I wonder how long they’re going to do this. It would be nice to get my order.

Remember, always make sure your ZIP code is correct when ordering online.

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Went to the doctor this morning

Edit: I spoke with the pharmacy manager and apparently by doctor called the wrong pharmacy, but he was able to fill it thankfully.

In my last entry, I mentioned I was going to go to the doctor to see about the lump I found in my breast. The doctor said she’s confident that it’s a cyst, but wants me to get a mammogram anyway. I’m kind of worried about it because I heard those hurt, but I have to get it done.

I’m really not liking the mental health care I’m receiving. They have a new policy now where you can’t just make an appointment with the psychiatrist, you have to call pretty much every day until they have an opening. They open at 8 AM weekdays and my psychiatrist is booked by 8:10. That’s crazy. Tonight they called me about 5 minutes before closing to tell me that they forgot to refill one of my prescriptions. I’ve been without this medication because I thought the doctor was taking me off of it because of it’s high abuse rate. I was told this wasn’t the case and that the medication would be called in. The pharmacy never received it, so I’m not happy that I have to wait until Monday to call the doctor’s office about it. I haven’t slept in I don’t know how long, probably because I’ve been without my medication for almost two weeks. I wish I could go somewhere else, but my insurance won’t cover any place else. It’s so frustrating dealing with this place. ~x(

Sick again and more drama

I’m sick yet again with what I think is a stomach bug. I don’t know why I keep getting sick. Hopefully it won’t last long.

There’s more drama between those two ladies and I again. I got a letter from my friend saying I’m accusing her of things and she doesn’t like being called a liar. I never called her a liar. The other lady keeps making up stuff to get me into trouble, and now my friend is starting to see that. You have to watch everything you say or do or the other lady will report you to the office. My friend and I think it’s her who ratted out one of the neighbors who got two new dogs and a boyfriend moved in without permission from the manager. This is just getting so ridiculous, a 62 year old starting all this drama like it’s high school. I’m so over this crap, seriously. Maybe I should start just keeping to myself. Everything was fine until that old drama queen moved in.

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I need to vent

I use this blog sometimes as kind of therapy because it helps me to write things down that are bothering me. First of all, I’m worried about the rent increase because I don’t want to move and can’t find anything cheaper with square footage being similar to this place. Very few have all utilities included like this place. Second, my mental and physical health has been poor, the doctor keeps saying “we’ll get you feeling better soon” every time he sees me. I’ve been having problems since I was 3 so it’s unlikely my mental health will improve. Then there are bills I can’t pay and I have to worry about collection agencies and potential lawsuits. I’m also still in love with my ex which is really hard. This has not been a good year for me, it seems everything is going downhill and getting worse. I’ve just been trying to take it day by day, but my OCD thinking gets the best of me.

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So much for seeing Skrillex

I got to the venue and there was absolutely no parking. I had to turn around and go home. The whole place was so confusing I couldn’t find anything, so many buildings. A venue like that should have a parking garage, not a few little lots. I’m so disappointed, I really wanted to see him. Plus I’m now out $46 for the ticket which is non-refundable. I got there early and everything. Really big bummer. :-< Maybe next time he comes he'll come to a different venue? Kind of doubtful though. [custom_field field=”mood” post_id=”1963″ limit=”0″ before=”Mood: ” after=”” between=”, ” /]
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