I went to the dentist again and needed a filling in another tooth. At least it wasn’t another infection. I go back again in the middle of June to have the crown put on the tooth that I had the root canal on.
I’ve been feeling sick for the past month or so and didn’t know why. I made several trips to the doctor for ear pain and gynecological issues. My ear was infected at one point so I was prescribed antibiotics and ear drops, and well as stuff for other infections. My ear looked better after the treatment but I was still in a lot of pain. I finally found out why last Monday. I had an abscessed tooth that was causing the ear pain and headaches, as well as chills and fever. The dentist tried to finish the root canal but couldn’t. I would have to see an endodontist. I went to the endodontist today and he found that my general dentist left a piece of an instrument inside one of the canals and it was hard to remove. They charged a lot for it. I wouldn’t think she’d leave a piece of an instrument in a canal on purpose. I have to go back to my general dentist for a crown and something might be wrong in another tooth. It’s always something. The problem is, I had horrible dental work done in my hometown that ruined my mouth. I don’t know why the problems under these old silver fillings aren’t being detected on x-rays.
There have also been things going on around here. First, the air conditioning unit died when it was hot, now there’s something wrong with the washing machine. Since the machines are still under warranty, the GE repair person came out and didn’t find anything. The washer has been making insanely loud noises. And of course, when he was here it wasn’t making the noises. So the next time I did laundry I recorded the machine so they can see what it’s actually doing. I’m not as worried about that as I am about the dental problems though.
I’ve been having a lot of trouble with a certain package delivery service (you may be able to guess which one). I had 2 packages coming from this service. The first one wasn’t delivered until 8:30 at night which was really inconvenient for me. I didn’t think it was even going to show up. It was a patio furniture set that was in a huge box and was heavy. One small piece broke but I was able to superglue it back on so it wasn’t noticeable.
The worst experience was with the second package tonight. The tracking showed it was delivered but there was no knock on the door and no package outside. I had to contact customer service to see what was going on and was told I’d hear from someone within an hour. The driver called me and said he took it to the wrong apartment because he said it looked similar to a different letter. Customer service then called and said the driver should be back to knock on that person’s door to retrieve the package. The driver said I had to knock on this person’s door. I did, and a nice lady answered and was understanding of the situation. I’m lucky she was honest about it and gave it to me. The customer service lady was not at all happy about this. She said he should have been the one to come back to knock on the door, not me. She also said she’d be taking this up with his supervisor because this was ridiculous. He wasn’t even very apologetic about it. She said misdeliveries happen but I shouldn’t have had to be the one to go all the way to that person’s apartment to get it. Whenever I order something, if this delivery service is used I will have to try to avoid it.
I filed a case with eBay about the items and they told me I needed to go to the post office to see how much it would cost to send the items back. I would also need new packaging because they packed it so tight it all tore when trying to get it open. I decided to close the case. I don’t have a vehicle so it would cost me money to take an Uber or Lyft to the post office. When I needed to ship something I’d just get bubble mailers from the store within walking distance and have the mail carrier pick them up. It’s just not worth it. When I sold on eBay if a buyer had a problem with an inexpensive item I just refunded them and told them they didn’t have to send it back to me. I’m not sure why this seller is so hell-bent on wanting this total junk back. eBay didn’t even seem to care that they’re selling stuff like this. I will make sure I am more careful next time. I at least left the seller a negative.
Yesterday one of my mental health workers took me to go look at an apartment. Maintenance was still working in there but I didn’t like it at all. The kitchen only had a tiny sink, a few cupboards, no counter space, a small refrigerator and a small stove. I don’t know where a microwave or anything else would go. Most of the cookware would have to go in a closet. The bathroom also only had a shower and no bathtub. For as much as they want in rent, I won’t be getting much of anything. The office at the place I live now said if I wanted to stay here (I don’t, but it may be my only option) I would have to move into a remodeled apartment. Staying in this one is not an option. I don’t even like the remodeled ones because the new kitchen takes up half the living room. That means some furniture would have to go. The manager said no because they want to remodel all the apartments and they can’t do that if they let people stay in the old ones. The other places I wanted to see don’t have anything available for me to look at and don’t know if they’ll have one ready to move into when my lease is up (January 31st). I’m not sure what I’m going to do, it’s just stressful.
I’ve been posting about this on Twitter, but I’m just mad and frustrated at this point. I bought a bathroom set from a seller on eBay and got scammed. What actually arrived was so terrible I couldn’t even use them. I contacted the seller and they offered a 30% discount without returning the items. If I wanted a full refund, I’d have to send them back. Why should I have to pay to ship them back when they weren’t as described? The seller also suggested I donate or sell them. Nobody is going to want this garbage. They’re getting a ton of negatives with complaints about how awful the items are and that they were scammed. I tried opening a case with eBay and PayPal and I guess I need to wait for the seller to resolve it which I don’t think they have. I’m going to try to fight this and get my money back but I don’t know if I will. I don’t know why they allow people to sell total crap and not take responsibility for it. It’s not so much the cost, it’s the fact that they falsely represented the items and don’t seem to care. If eBay and PayPal won’t help, I guess it’s a lesson learned and I’ll be more careful with what I purchase. It’s still really frustrating though.
Therapy has been going ok, but trying to get my other worker to do what she’s supposed to is really difficult. She’s supposed to be helping me find an apartment because I’m having a hard time doing it myself. The first time she was supposed to take me she said something was wrong with her laptop and the car didn’t get reserved. The second time I tried to call her and got a message that I was blocked. She called me from her personal phone to tell me that her work phone and laptop were stolen out of her car and she should have new ones soon. Why would you keep electronics in a car to begin with? Today she completely blew me off and didn’t show up and didn’t call. I understand that things happen but this is the third time I’ve been canceled on. I may have to contact the person in charge of the program and request someone else because nothing is getting accomplished here. I’m just getting really irritated.
I also missed my psychiatrist appointment because my case manager was out for a week. I wish I never got arrested and lost my car and license because what a pain it is to get anywhere and get anything done.
I saw my psychiatrist today and he prescribed a medication that’s used to treat Bipolar. I don’t know if I’m Bipolar or not but I keep struggling with mood problems and depression. I’m also on other medication to help with mood. Most of it is situational. Since I haven’t heard from the navigator who was going to help me find another place, I’ll have to try to get in touch with the lady who did the intake.
That person who stole my card information last month is still causing trouble. They tried making a purchase from iTunes, and I got an email saying an order is ready for pickup at a Toys R Us in Indiana. The old card was closed and has been closed for over a month but they are still trying to use it. I called the bank and Toys R Us and neither were of any help. I wish this person would get caught but that probably won’t happen. Since all that happened, my email spam folder has been filling up with thousands of porn emails. That wasn’t happening before so it wouldn’t surprise me if that person signed me up for all of that. There are some really messed up people out there.
I’ve been really mad that my apartment is now infested with cockroaches. I went off a bit on office staff about how tired I am of pest problems. The last unit I lived in here was infested with rats and bedbugs, pest control was having a hard time getting rid of them so I moved to another unit (the one I’m in now). I started seeing a cockroach here and there a week after I moved in here. Pest control has been coming regularly to spray but that isn’t working anymore because the problem has gotten worse. Neighbors had them and never said anything, now most of them have moved out which caused the cockroaches to move in here. I’m now having to spend all this time doing all the prep work for a more intensive treatment. They did this intensive treatment several months ago to all the units and thought that would be the end of it but that is not the case. Everything has to be ready by Wednesday. I got a lot done today. It also doesn’t sound like they want to treat these vacant units until they’re done being remodeled. This could take weeks/months for them to finish them. I doubt that the problem will go away unless they do the treatment in mine and the others the same day.
The lease is up at the end of January and they require 60 days notice if I’m moving. That means I would have to find another place by November. My mental health clinic offers a lot of services, so my case manager is referring me to someone who can help me find another place. They help you find and go look at apartments. I haven’t had a lot of luck looking online, I found one place that might work but I’ll have to see if this person might have other ideas. 5 years at this ridiculous place is plenty. My mental health has gotten worse because there is just problem after problem. I know cockroaches are a common problem in Arizona, but if management would stop making excuses for not checking other units it wouldn’t be getting to this point.
I’ve written about this before, but I had this “friend” who would constantly piss me off with her crappy behavior. She may see this, but oh well who cares.
I met her at my apartment complex a few years ago. This “friendship” was never really right to begin with. I kept telling her the truth but she made it out to always be my fault for not “understanding” or whatever. I understand just fine. It was always a one sided friendship. When I lived on the other side of the complex, she would harass me constantly for cigarettes. She said her boyfriend takes all her money and she can’t buy her own. She uses people. If they have something she wants (cigarettes, a place to live, pot, etc) she’ll always be around. I would always be the one to reach out to talk or hang out but she wouldn’t unless she wanted something. She came over to visit this past Sunday, and the only reason she did that was that she wanted me to go to the store for her. She gave me the money, but still. Her health is bad so she can’t really walk. Staying in bed all the time and abusing pills really isn’t helping the situation (been there done that, it doesn’t help anything at all). She also has no manners and is very rude. Of course, if I bring this up I get yelled at and it’s my fault somehow again. When she was over, she wouldn’t stop texting and talking on the phone. The right thing to do would have been to tell them she’s busy and would talk later. She says she has her own stuff going on and I’m apparently wrong for wanting to actually talk and spend time with her. There’s always some excuse.
I would stupidly forgive her time and time again, probably because I’m not good at socializing and making friends. I can’t let this continue. Even my mom doesn’t like her because of this behavior. Whenever I point out this behavior, I’m the bad guy. I can’t win. I just need to move on with my life. None of this is ever going to change because she doesn’t see an issue with her actions. It’s always my fault. No more.
I plan on moving out of here in the near future, but her lease is up before mine.
Earlier this week someone got ahold of my debit card information and there was an unauthorized charge for $0.56 for a medical place in another state. I called the bank right away and they canceled the card and was sending me a new one. They said it would take 7-10 business days to receive it. I told them I couldn’t wait that long because some bills were due. I just received the new card today because they sent it express so I’d get it sooner. The unauthorized charge didn’t go through so I didn’t have to dispute it. Whoever got my information tried to make hundreds of dollars in purchases in the middle of the night last night, and they were all declined because the card was canceled.
This has happened several times in the past, unfortunately. People must be getting the card numbers from a website or from a store. I only use my card online on legitimate websites. I don’t know what else I can do to try to prevent this, but I suppose if someone really wants the information they’ll find a way to get it anyway.
I’ve never been good with people because of my autism, and I really don’t like when people put me on the spot or expect me to do things I’m not comfortable doing. There’s this young couple who lives 2 doors down from me and the guy’s mother is staying with them, and the father occasionally comes by and apparently, the son doesn’t want him to. Sometimes when I start to come outside for a cigarette, the father is sitting in my chair (which isn’t a big deal, but he can’t seem to leave me alone). He keeps asking me to do things that I’m not comfortable doing (knocking on his son and girlfriend’s door). I don’t know them and they don’t know me. The son tends to ignore the father’s efforts to contact him because I guess they don’t get along. The father keeps thanking me for doing these things when I don’t do them, I just say yeah ok when I really should say no. I just feel bad because it’s a sad situation all around. I just don’t want to get involved because it’s not my place to act as a mediator between father and son. I’m just going to have to say no and hope he doesn’t get too upset. I’m really not good with people and forced interaction. I just like to keep to myself honestly.
Update: A new therapist called and he seemed kind of rude. I get really flustered on the phone because of anxiety and agreed to an appointment I didn’t really want. I called this morning to cancel. I’m just not having much luck with therapists and am getting too frustrated at this point, so I don’t really want therapy right now.
I saw my psychiatrist on Tuesday, he took me off one medication because it wasn’t helping and prescribed something to help me sleep. It worked for one night so far. I miss the nights years ago when I could sleep normally. I think it’s related to my mental health and I have been going to therapy. I will have to switch to a different therapist because he kept bringing up sexual things and asking questions that I didn’t think were appropriate. I told him to stop making these comments and he made it seem like it was my fault because “everyone else talks about it”. I’m not really concerned with what “everyone else” is talking about, I’m not “everyone else”. It’s one thing if I brought it up, but I didn’t. It seemed like he was trying to make me feel bad about it. I asked a couple of people what they thought, and they thought he was out of line. He didn’t seem to like that I didn’t think his comments were appropriate and I want to see someone else. Oh well, I have every right to switch if I’m not comfortable.
Yesterday the regular doctor said the allergic reaction appears to be gone now but it could come back. She told me to pay attention to what I’m using (I haven’t changed anything). My skin has been really dry and it usually isn’t. I’ll have to wait and see what happens and go from there.
Anyway, I got a Snapchat finally. I know I’m really behind but it took me some time to get the hang of it. My Snapcode is on the sidebar.
I know I just blogged, but something happened that was really bothersome to me. Someone stole the patio chair outside my apartment last night and threw it in the dumpster. It’s not so much about the chair, but the fact that someone was taking something outside my apartment late at night while I was asleep. When I woke up this morning, I started to head out to take out the trash and noticed the chair was gone. As I was taking out the trash, I looked in the empty dumpster out of curiosity and there it was. I sent an email to the office about it, and they offered to have maintenance get the chair back for me which was really nice. I had to leave for an appointment and the chair was back in its place when I got home. I have a pretty good idea who did it, but without proof, neither I nor the office can do anything. The guy next door absolutely hates smokers, so it wouldn’t surprise me if it was him. What he doesn’t realize is, I’ve been under a lot of stress and was smoking/vaping a bit more than usual. He would stand in his doorway and stare at me which made me uncomfortable. I keep trying to quit so I don’t have to deal with stuff like this, but it’s just so difficult especially with what’s been going on. I think he waited until I went to bed (it was late) to do it to minimize the risk of him being seen. He could have just discussed it with me instead of doing that. I will be bringing in the chair as well as the doormat (just in case) before I go to bed so there’s nothing out there for him to mess with.
I’m just afraid that this will escalate, but if it does, I’ll have to contact the police.
Pest control came Thursday and everything was ok. I didn’t need a follow-up treatment and was told I could put everything back. I spent the weekend moving the furniture back, putting all the other stuff back, cleaning, and doing laundry. That was such a pain having to move everything out of closets and cupboards then moving it all back.
I see a new doctor next week, I have a list of concerns about my back, stomach, my now swollen foot, and a few other things. I don’t know why my foot is swollen when I haven’t done anything to it. It’s all a bit worrying. I’m sure a lot of these problems may be related to all the weight gain from medications. I really need to get more exercise, but unfortunately, the gym here is under construction. It’s also been really hot here and is supposed to go up to 90+ degree temperatures. The apartment complex manager still hasn’t turned on the air conditioning (this place has an old system where you can only either have heat or air conditioning, not both). They said that the temperatures were too low at night (they aren’t) and it’s going to take awhile to get the chiller systems up and running. It’s not supposed to be on until the 20th. My apartment gets so hot during the day that it’s almost unbearable. I have several fans going and it doesn’t help much. I really don’t understand why they think it’s too cold at night. If people are cold, can’t they just put on a sweater? I may have to complain to the city because 94 degrees is too hot to be without air conditioning.
I received a 5-day eviction notice on my door this morning for non-payment of rent. I was mad because it was paid a week ago. I took the notice and went down to the office to see why I even received the notice. They couldn’t seem to find the payment and had to try to track it down. They finally did find it and it was in fact paid. I have lived here for 4 years, the rent has never once been late or not paid. Since this place was bought out, there is all new staff. Either way, they should have actually checked to see if it was paid before putting out that notice. The notice also includes late fees which I’m not paying because the rent was paid on time. If that wasn’t bad enough, the constant noise of the construction work day in and day out of this place has been leaving me with a lot of headaches and stress. Other people who live here are sick of it too. One neighbor said she used to like it here but with all these workers new management hired, the noise is just too much and she doesn’t like it here much anymore. I’m sure a lot of people are going to be moving out when their leases are up, some already have.
My mental health clinic has really been getting on my nerves too. My case manager never has time to even call me back, so peer support called me. I don’t really like her. She called me last Friday morning saying she wanted to do a home visit in an hour. I said no, an hour is not enough notice for me. So then she came in the afternoon. As soon as she got here, she ran straight to my bathroom. After that, she wanted to leave. She didn’t remember anything we discussed that day and told me things she was going to do that she never did. She doesn’t understand my autism or why I need advanced notice of things, and why I have difficulty with some things. She just doesn’t listen or remember anything I say. I hung up on her out of frustration. I’m just really stressed out and tired because I’m having trouble sleeping again. I wish I could just catch a break.
Anyway, I got this at Barnes & Noble to get my thoughts and feelings out. I still use the worry journal but this is for everything else.
I saw the doctor yesterday, and I felt like I wasted most of my day. It took awhile for me to be seen. I told her about the pain in my ear, stomach, and back. She looked in my ear and said there’s really nothing wrong and it’s probably a dental issue. She dismissed my back and stomach pain. I made an appointment with the dentist, I’m worried because I don’t have insurance and will need help from family for the costs. It’s like the dentist’s office didn’t believe me either. I guess because I have mental illnesses, people don’t take me seriously. My doctor prescribed me an anti-nausea medication which isn’t really helping. I feel like crap. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow that I really don’t want to cancel because I’ve been waiting for over a month to see him. My psychiatrist said I should have my back x-rayed, but my regular doctor doesn’t seem concerned at all with it. The next time I see him I’ll have to tell him that. I may have to start looking for a new doctor, but I’m afraid the same thing will happen (them not believing me about the pain). At least at the dentist, if they find something it’ll get taken care of.
I had a horrible stomach virus at the beginning of November, now I’m having stomach issues again (but not nearly as bad as before) and either ear or tooth pain. I’m not even due to go to the dentist yet, I first want to see if it’s my ear because many times before when I had pain and went to the dentist, it wasn’t my teeth and ended up being an ear infection. I go to the doctor on Tuesday, I called this past Tuesday so that will be a week. It usually doesn’t take that long to get in, but a lot of people are sick right now because of the weather change.
I was feeling ok enough to go get a haircut today. I wasn’t at all happy with the salon I went to. Apparently, it was one of those quick salons but I didn’t know that. There is only one guy there and he was kind of rude. I was shaking with anxiety because he made me uncomfortable. I brought in a picture of how I wanted it cut and he didn’t take more than 10 minutes and said he was done. I just wanted to get out of there so I just said I liked it so I could pay and leave. I definitely won’t be going back there. If he wasn’t so intimidating I would have had him do more. I was the only person in there and their Facebook page didn’t have many likes, and then I knew why. I will have to go back to the salon I went to before even though it’s more expensive. I’m feeling like crap again now probably because of the anxiety attack I had earlier.
Update 11/16/16: The seller seems upset that I left negative feedback and basically wants positive feedback. They said they refunded me, but I’m not sure since the balance on my card was a bit higher than it was but says nothing in my transaction history. I don’t think they deserve positive feedback, I wanted to warn others and for them to learn not to package things so horribly.
I had a horrible experience ordering from a particular website. I won’t link to it, but it wasn’t eBay. Weeks ago, I ordered a laptop skin. The price was great so I wanted to get it. Big mistake.
Today I finally received it, and this is how it arrived:
I don’t understand why the seller would even roll it up like that, I can’t even use it because of how wrinkled it is. I opened a dispute, I may not get a full refund because I’m not paying to ship it back. It would cost more to ship back than what I originally paid. Now I know why they were selling it for that cheap. I sent this picture along with the dispute. I’ll have to wait and see what happens. I definitely will not order from that site again.
I had an intake appointment at a new place today so I can start therapy there. The appointment was at 1:45 but the lady I had the appointment with didn’t take me back until 2. She had to ask a ton of questions and update my treatment plan. It went okay, and I even got to meet the therapist briefly. He seemed really nice and nothing like that horrible one I saw last month that made me have to go somewhere else. After that, I called the cab company for a ride home. This place is a lot farther out than the one I usually go to. They said a cab should be here between 10 minutes to an hour. By this time, it started getting really dark outside because a storm was coming. I waited for an hour and no cab came. I called the cab company back and they said they were “working on it”. I waited another half hour and still nobody. I went back in to the clinic and asked if they knew what I could do. The lady I had an appointment with told me to try calling the clinic I normally go to, so I did. By this time it started raining. They said a cab was supposed to have picked me up an hour ago, so she sent another one. One did show up but claimed they couldn’t find me and had to cancel the trip. I was really upset at this point. I was standing outside in the cold rain waiting for them. I called back again and they said they’d have a cab sent right away, so I went back outside to wait. It finally showed up so I got in. He told me the traffic was really bad because of the weather. I was so glad to get out of the rain, and by this time it was completely dark outside. During the ride, another cab kept calling and texting that they were there to pick me up. I didn’t answer because they are usually rude if I don’t show, but I had already been picked up.
I didn’t get home until after 6. That was crazy. I think if when I have an appointment and there’s a storm coming, I’m going to cancel.
I seem to be having a lot of problems with strange and creepy guys coming up to me who live in the same complex as me. When I lived in the old building, this one neighbor would always bother me by coming to the door, he didn’t seem that bad just seemed like a lonely elderly guy who didn’t really have anyone to talk to. Since I’ve moved over here, I haven’t really seen him which I guess is good. There are a couple other guys who live in another building who would keep stopping me while I was either walking to and from the store or in the store. They keep inviting me over and I would keep declining. I really don’t feel comfortable at all going to anyone’s apartment that I don’t know. They just seem really persistent and don’t seem to get it. I’m going to have to be straightforward with them and say that I’m really not interested and am not willing to come over. Then one time I was at the mailbox getting the mail, and a guy I had never seen or met before started talking to me and knew where I lived before and where I live now. I thought that was really creepy. Because of my autism and anxiety I have trouble when people just approach me like that, sometimes I’m too nice. I’m also afraid to piss them off because I don’t know how they will react or what they might do.
It seems to be getting worse, these same guys just keep approaching me. I wish they would just leave me alone. I can try to just tell them to leave me alone and just walk away. I just don’t understand why they feel the need to pester someone who clearly wants to be left alone.