One of my neighbors died

I think she died a few days ago? I don’t remember as I have memory problems. I didn’t know her, but I feel bad because she was a sweet little old lady. Her niece gave me her little bookshelf so I have something of hers. She’s been in my thoughts. It’s always sad when nice people die, but it’s a part of life. :cry:

I don’t have much to say other than that, I just wanted to get it off my chest.

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New social network

It’s very simple and it’s called Ello. I found out about it from Jennifer. You can follow me on Ello at @hellokittygirl. If you need an invite, leave your e-mail in the comments and I’ll send you one.

I always love trying new sites, and even though it’s minimal I kind of like it.

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Thank You Kya

I just want to thank Kya for sending me this lovely Christmas card, it just arrived today.

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I really appreciate it. :D

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This was an unexpected surprise

I was in bed because I wanted to go to bed early until I heard the doorbell ring. It was FedEx (or UPS) one of the two. I got a free little figurine guy and I’m not sure why. It says something about it being their 25th anniversary and I’m a regular customer.

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He’s kind of cute with his piercings and tattoos. Now I’m waiting on a few things I actually ordered to show up. ;-)

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In one of my moods again

I’m in one of my depressed and completely bored out of my mind moods. I always feel worse around the holidays because I don’t get to see my family. I don’t think I’m even decorating for Christmas this year, what’s the point? Nobody’s coming over. It’s also too much work to just have the stuff up for a month. Plus, my closet is such a mess it is packed to the ceiling with stuff and I don’t think I could get anything out anyway.

It sounds like my mom won’t be coming out in the spring (she was supposed to come out in October, but her back problems prevented her from doing so). She says she can’t afford it because she has to help me out with my dental issues. She bought a new house so that could also be why. I feel so bad, but I don’t have insurance. I suggested we video chat, but she said she got a new laptop and doesn’t know if it has a camera or how to do it (she’s not very good at technology).

When I’m close to running out of medication, I’m calling my doctor to see if I can come in and get some different medication, I need to start feeling better.

I’ve also been very active on my Tumblr lately, I think I’m addicted.

I don’t know if any of this is stupid or makes sense but it’s what’s going through my head right now. All my thoughts are jumbled right now.

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New Tumblr

I’ve decided to open back up a Tumblr account for quotes and pictures. Check it out here. Follow me if you like. There’s not much there at the moment because I just started it about an hour ago. Erin.nu will still be my main blog.

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Oh USPS

Edit: I got a voicemail from USPS saying they’re going to try to fix it and get it to me. I then realized I also forgot to include my apartment number. #-o I hope it gets to me but if not, oh well I guess.

I ordered a pair of shoes online a few days ago and accidentally entered one digit wrong in my ZIP code. So now my package is stuck in California when I live in Arizona. Apparently they go by ZIP codes and not cities and states. I called USPS and they told me the package is being sent back to the company I ordered from. All USPS would have to do is change that one digit to deliver the package, but no, that’d be too easy. I understand it’s my fault for making a typo but I don’t understand why USPS can’t correct that small issue. I hope I get a refund when it’s sent back to the company. I e-mailed them about it so we’ll see. Frustrating but I should have paid more attention. 8-}

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More random stuff

I got an invoice today from my apartment complex’s office for the plumbing service that had to come out a couple Saturdays ago. $244.20 to pull up the toilet and unclog it. The manager said it was my fault for flushing feminine products down it (sorry TMI, I’m usually a TMI type of person, lol) and clogging it. Well, it’s fixed now so that’s what matters.

I ordered some shoes online and completely screwed up the shipping address, so I don’t think I’m going to get them. That’s what I get for ordering things online late at night I guess. I’m trying to sort it out with the site I ordered from and USPS, but the USPS is a pain sometimes.

I’ve also been having a lot of problems with my teeth lately, a lot of them have been hurting. I think I go to the dentist in January but I do see an endodontist on December 3rd to see about a possible root canal. Now I’m thinking I may need more than one, or it could just me being paranoid. I kind of blame my dentist for this because when I came in for my cleaning she was at lunch and didn’t check my teeth for cavities like she normally does. Sometimes I have gone into the dentist complaining of pain and they found nothing wrong. I guess I’m just really paranoid about my teeth or something.

Oh, and I also got a free pizza tonight! I had finally built up enough Papa Rewards from Papa John’s to get a free large pizza. All I had to pay was delivery charge and tip. :-bd

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Random stuff

I didn’t want to leave my last entry at the top because it’s so…negative. I’m trying to think of other things to post about, but it does help me to vent sometimes.

Just a few unimportant things to update: Verizon Wireless e-mailed me the other day offering double the data than what I have for now for the same price if I call them. So I called and now have 4GB instead of 2 at no additional charge. I probably won’t use it, I mostly use my wi-fi, but it’s nice to have just in case.

I bought a space heater yesterday because my apartment complex hasn’t turned on the heat yet (they’re supposed to on the 20th). My apartment has been so cold. I can’t wait for it to be turned on. I’m not liking this cold, I wish it was hot year round.

I also decided to purchase hosting for a year instead of month to month because in the long run it will save me money. I love Host Gator.

I also did a little more shopping when I shouldn’t have, but I got these:
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Did some shopping

Yesterday I went to Walmart to buy a new TV and wireless blu-ray player, I wanted one in my bedroom so I put the old one in there. Today I went to Target to get a new table to for new TV in the living room, it’s a bit tall, but it was the only one I could find that was already assembled. I had such a hard time getting it in my car that I scraped it up a bit. Here’s a picture of the TV and table (sorry it’s sideways, I can’t seem to fix it):

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As you can see, I have a very small wall so a TV stand wouldn’t fit. For some reason I keep having problems with my wi-fi dropping out when I’m trying to watch movies. It does this on both the old player and new player. It’s so annoying when you’re trying to watch something and it just shuts off. I should have taken the deal the cable company offered me of cable TV for only $20 extra a month. I have a TV in the bedroom now where the cable line is, but I don’t know if they can make me that offer again, it said nothing about that price on their website. Knowing me I wouldn’t watch it anyway. :))

I also ordered a bluetooth keyboard case for my phone, that should be here sometime tomorrow. It had some bad reviews, but it would be nice to be able to use a keyboard instead of typing on screen. The only downside is that the keyboard has to be charged. I wish they would go back to making keyboard phones. I still have my Droid 4, but it’s old and slow.

Monday I’m supposed to get bloodwork done, I need to have my hormones and thyroid checked. I’m not looking forward to that at all, I hate needles and blood.

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Got the flu

Yesterday I started feeling really sick and looked up flu symptoms, I seem to have most of them. So I won’t be making it to the Whitechapel show tonight. :-< This month has been disappointing because of missed concerts I paid for and couldn't attend. Things just happen I guess. I hope I'm better for my appointment on Monday, I've already rescheduled that twice so I really need to go. I do feel very slightly better than yesterday but I'm going to stay home and rest. I haven't really been able to eat either, and just showering has been a struggle. I haven't felt this awful in a long time. :-& I hope I get better soon. [custom_field field=”mood” post_id=”2032″ limit=”0″ before=”Mood: ” after=”” between=”, ” /]
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I still can’t get over her

Even though my ex-girlfriend (I’m bi) and I broke up months ago, I still can’t get over her. It sucks having to see her whenever I want to go outside to smoke (we’re not allowed to smoke in our apartments here). It’s like the breakup didn’t phase her at all, she dumped me and broke my heart. My heart is still broken and I don’t know what to do to get over it. Her being with someone else makes me feel jealous and more hurt. She was seeing a guy too while we were dating, but for some reason it bothers me that she may find another woman. What has worked for me in the past after a breakup is cutting off all contact, but she’s always around so that’s hard to do. Maybe I’m having these feelings because I’m depressed and lonely, or it could be because it’s that time of the month. Someday I hope to find someone who won’t break my heart.

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My parents moved again

My parents moved again (seems like they’re always moving) to a town called Hermitage, PA. I’ve never heard of it, but that’s where they could find a house they could afford. Apparently they didn’t like apartment living and wanted another house. I wish I could afford one because I hate apartment living.

My mom will be flying out to visit later this month, I’m looking forward to it because I haven’t seen her in a about a year.

Haven’t had much to blog about lately, been sick (again) and am feeling better finally. I can’t believe it’s October already, where did September go? It went by so fast. I’m liking the cooler weather (if you can call 80 degree temperatures cooler) but nights seem pretty chilly. It looks like it’ll be warming back up into the 90’s though. At least it’s not triple digits like it was.

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Help Alvin Get Well

I saw this fundraiser from a woman who is a member of one of the Facebook groups I’m in and it really touched me. Check out the fundraiser here. Alvin really needs help so I’m just trying to get the word out there. [-O< [custom_field field=”mood” post_id=”1906″ limit=”0″ before=”Mood: ” after=”” between=”, ” /]
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Labor Day weekend

It’s labor day weekend and I have no plans, I’ve been feeling really sick the past several days. I think I have some kind of virus, I feel so yucky. Mostly I’ve been sleeping (when I can) or doing pretty much nothing. I have a doctor appointment on Tuesday that I cannot miss so I hope I’m feeling better by then (it took me weeks to get this appointment, and I have a medical excuse form I need filled out by the deadline).

I don’t know what else to say really, just wishing everyone a safe and happy labor day to those who celebrate it.

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Dear mind

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I’ve had this problem for years. I think about everything, and I mean everything at night when I want to sleep. Does anyone else have this problem or have any suggestions? It’s 3:40 AM right now and my mind keeps racing and I can’t sleep.

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RIP Robin Williams

I was very saddened to hear about his death. I loved the movies he was in and he always made me laugh. He also reminded me a lot of my dad. I don’t know what to say other than that, it’s just shocking sad news. What a terrible loss.

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We made up

I worked things out with my friend, she apologized to me for her behavior which I wasn’t expecting. Things seem to be ok now.

I haven’t been doing too well, I’ve been under so much stress because the bills keep piling up and I barely have enough to pay them all. I’m doing the best I can though. It is taking it’s toll on me mentally and physically. I hate bills!

I’m also really upset about my doctor’s office new policy. Now they only allow you to come in to see the doctor when you run out of medication. Lately he has just been refilling the medication without having me come in. This isn’t good because I have mental health issues and need to be seeing a doctor. I called them a few days ago because I’m having problems with my anti-depressant (lots of bad side effects). He said to go off the medication. I said I needed a different medication then because it’s not good for me to be off of anti-depressants. I was told to call back on the 18th (why the 18th?) to schedule an appointment. Not liking this at all.

I wish things would improve, but it doesn’t seem to be going that way. Bad luck I guess.

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I guess this is it

It seems my ex-girlfriend and I’s friendship is over. She’s been ignoring me and deleted me from Facebook. I blocked her number too. Being friends with an ex has never worked for me and this isn’t working. I know she has a lot she’s dealing with right now, but I just can’t be friends with her. This is hard to do because she lives by me. I’m going to try to avoid her as much as possible. She’s causing unnecessary stress in my life and it has to stop. She’s also not very understanding of me and my illnesses and I don’t need a friend like that.

I just want to move on with my life.

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This is so hard

I’m still completely in love with my ex-girlfriend, we’re just friends now but it’s really hard. I want to be with her so badly but she loves her boyfriend and won’t leave him. She says she loves me back but doesn’t want to get back with me. I don’t think I’ve ever been in love with someone this much before, it hurts. I ended up kissing her yesterday and I shouldn’t have, but she kissed me back. I wish she’d leave that guy who treats her like crap and be with me instead, but I don’t see that happening. I wish I could get over her. :-< [custom_field field=”mood” post_id=”1803″ limit=”0″ before=”Mood: ” after=”” between=”, ” /]
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