Allergy mystery still unsolved

This allergic reaction is still going on, despite stopping a certain medication that may have been the cause. It may take awhile for it to leave my system. The doctor prescribed another round of steroids. She keeps saying it’s something I’m eating or using. I’ve only ever had allergic reactions to medications, nothing else. I know exactly what I’m eating and using and was eating and using these things with no problems a month ago but she won’t listen to me. She’s going to have to refer me to someone who can help me with finding the cause if it isn’t that medication. I need to allow some more time to see if it clears up and stay off that medication permanently. It’s just really frustrating because being red and itchy is not fun.

As far as therapy goes, I’ve decided not to do it at this time. I was really put off by the last therapist’s behavior, and I can’t seem to find another one I connect with. Honestly, I’ve only had 2 good therapists. The only reason why I’m not seeing them anymore is because they left to take a job elsewhere. I also want to cut back on appointments since the transportation services are a nightmare half the time. Last week I had a doctor appointment and was left stuck outside after they closed waiting for someone to show up for an hour and a half. When I complain, all I get is a half-assed apology. If only I had the money to reinstate my license and get a car.

Finally a new theme

I finally got the new theme up. Yes, it’s similar to the other one but at least it’s a bit of a change. I’m still having health issues and have been running to a lot of appointments. A couple weeks ago, I developed an allergic reaction to something but I can’t figure out what it’s from. The doctor prescribed some stuff to help alleviate the symptoms, but it’s still not improving. I have to go back for a follow up on Thursday. I may have to have allergy testing done. I’ve never been allergic to anything but certain medications and I haven’t changed any of the products I’m using. I’m really stumped. I’m also still struggling with insomnia, I hardly ever sleep and I hate it. I see my psych doctor on Tuesday, I’ll tell him yet again that I’m still dealing with it. I hope something can be done because I can’t be awake all the time it’s not good.

There are still more changes happening at my apartment complex. They were bought out in December and everything is changing. I got a notice on my door the other night saying they need to run new gas lines because the remodeled units have washers and dryers. Mine isn’t remodeled. The notice also said I could move into a remodeled unit when my lease is up (which I’m not doing because the rent for those is much higher). I called the office about it and the lady said I would have to move into a remodeled unit when my lease is up in July. I started having an anxiety attack after that because that wouldn’t have given me much time to find another place. The lady who has worked in the office for years called a couple hours later and said that what the other lady told me wasn’t true and she shouldn’t have given me incorrect information. She said I could renew my lease here in my current apartment. She knows I can’t afford a remodeled unit because we discussed it. That was a relief. I haven’t had much luck finding another place and with all these appointments I want to also focus on getting better. I really don’t want to move right now, but I will eventually. Since I’m not sleeping, I don’t have the energy right now to deal with moving.

Some good news

On Tuesday I went to get the ultrasounds to check out the breast lumps, they turned out to be nothing. That was a huge relief. The follow-up appointment with my doctor is on Thursday. There are still several concerns that need to be brought up. I wish they had the time to get through it all so I don’t have to keep going back there multiple times. My back pain and stomach problems haven’t been addressed yet. I guess I’ll have to just keep going in until everything has been dealt with. I was seeing a crappy doctor before who wasn’t doing anything about the problems and they just got worse. They also did bloodwork, and only had the results for one thing which was my blood sugar. They said it was a little high but I’m not considered diabetic. I’m just tired of running to all these appointments but things need to be checked out. I’ve been really worn out because of my insomnia and not getting much sleep.

It’s Easter and I don’t have any plans as usual since the family is in Pennsylvania. I just want to relax honestly.

I was sick for a week

I was going to put a new theme up, but I caught this horrible cold/flu virus thing that has been going around. Last Monday it started with a bad cough and got worse from there. I could hardly eat anything for several days and back pain was severe. It was hard to rest because of my insomnia. I’m finally feeling better and am trying to get caught up on things. I’m not sure when I’ll get to the theme.

Last Tuesday I saw a new doctor. She, unfortunately, didn’t have time to go over all the health problems I’ve been having. I did have an infection she prescribed me antibiotics for. I was supposed to go in today for bloodwork and to get urine test results, but the transportation service showed up an hour and 20 minutes late so I wasn’t able to make it. I had a similar problem with my last appointment. The cab called me, hung up on me, and drove off. I had to wait for another one to come and get me which took awhile and made me late. I had to reschedule today’s appointment for this Friday and chose a different company for transportation. I hope this one shows up on time. Unfortunately all the trouble I got into in 2015 with my arrest, I lost my license and vehicle so it’s been a huge pain to have to rely on these companies who can’t show up on time because it makes me look bad.

I have therapy on the 6th and I’m looking forward to that to talk about all my frustrations.

Renewed my domain

The control panel was showing it didn’t expire until 2018, but that wasn’t accurate. It was actually going to expire April of this year. Customer service was really confused about it, but one person said I was right after they checked other things. Even Whois shows it expired in 2017. I didn’t want it to expire and risk losing it so I renewed.

I finally did find a new doctor, but it took a lot of phone calls. I will start seeing the new doctor on the 21st. I had other appointments scheduled or I would have made it sooner. The doctor I was seeing for 4 years didn’t take my new insurance and she wasn’t very good anyway. I last saw her in December and she ignored a lot of my concerns. Some of the health problems I’m having could be serious so I wasn’t happy about that. I really hope the new doctor will check these problems out.

My apartment complex is having an exterminator fog every single apartment for roaches. This place has had a lot of pest problems for decades so they’re finally doing something about it. Unfortunately, this requires a large amount of prep work (closets and cupboards have to be completely empty, nothing can be on countertops, all furniture has to be moved away from walls). I also have to stay out of my apartment for at least 3 hours after they’re done. I was just notified as of yesterday that it all has to be done by Thursday. I have a lot to do in a short amount of time. This is all going to be very difficult because of how small the place is, there’s not much room to put things. As much as I don’t want to do this, I have to or I’ll be fined $150 and will get an eviction notice. It’s not easy to do all this with fatigue and pain. I just have to keep working at it one room at a time. I may even have to miss another appointment on Tuesday, I may not have time to go because there’s so much to do. It’s just stressful.

Looking for a new doctor

I’ve been looking for a new doctor. The main reasons for that are my current one doesn’t take my secondary insurance, and she didn’t listen to me during the last visit. I got a bill in the mail for what my primary insurance didn’t pay. It’s not much, but I’d like to find a doctor who will take both. I’m still having back pain, and I’ve been having some pain and numbness in my right leg. I also am having a lot of stomach problems, it seems to hurt really often and I’m always running to the bathroom. The doctor thought it was because of anxiety, but I don’t think that’s the only reason. I’m always tired and have no energy.

I need a doctor who will listen and send me somewhere to have these things checked out. I’ve also gained a lot of weight, that might be because of the amounts of medications I’m on and the high doses. My depression has been bad as well. I thought that maybe it was because of the holidays, but they are over so I guess it’s not that. I see my psych doctor on Tuesday. I’m going to tell him that maybe it’s time to change my antidepressant to something I’ve never been on. It sucks feeling so blah and having no energy to get anything done.

Side note: I’ve opened an Etsy Shop.

Not feeling well again

I had a horrible stomach virus at the beginning of November, now I’m having stomach issues again (but not nearly as bad as before) and either ear or tooth pain. I’m not even due to go to the dentist yet, I first want to see if it’s my ear because many times before when I had pain and went to the dentist, it wasn’t my teeth and ended up being an ear infection. I go to the doctor on Tuesday, I called this past Tuesday so that will be a week. It usually doesn’t take that long to get in, but a lot of people are sick right now because of the weather change.

I was feeling ok enough to go get a haircut today. I wasn’t at all happy with the salon I went to. Apparently, it was one of those quick salons but I didn’t know that. There is only one guy there and he was kind of rude. I was shaking with anxiety because he made me uncomfortable. I brought in a picture of how I wanted it cut and he didn’t take more than 10 minutes and said he was done. I just wanted to get out of there so I just said I liked it so I could pay and leave. I definitely won’t be going back there. If he wasn’t so intimidating I would have had him do more. I was the only person in there and their Facebook page didn’t have many likes, and then I knew why. I will have to go back to the salon I went to before even though it’s more expensive. I’m feeling like crap again now probably because of the anxiety attack I had earlier.

Haven’t been doing well

Feels like it’s been awhile since my last post. I was sick but now I’m not feeling well again. I have had a toothache and have an appointment with an endodontist to see if I need a root canal on my tooth. I also (sorry if this is too much info) found a breast lump and am really worried about that. I have an appointment scheduled to get that checked out, I was too scared to make an appointment but found the courage to make one today. I’m worried because my mom had breast cancer, but she also told me that my aunt has had cysts in her breasts that weren’t cancer and told me to stay positive. My periods are also only lasting for a day which is unusual. I will bring this up with the doctor to see what she thinks. I don’t have much else to say, just wanted to explain why I haven’t been blogging or anything lately.

I need to vent

I use this blog sometimes as kind of therapy because it helps me to write things down that are bothering me. First of all, I’m worried about the rent increase because I don’t want to move and can’t find anything cheaper with square footage being similar to this place. Very few have all utilities included like this place. Second, my mental and physical health has been poor, the doctor keeps saying “we’ll get you feeling better soon” every time he sees me. I’ve been having problems since I was 3 so it’s unlikely my mental health will improve. Then there are bills I can’t pay and I have to worry about collection agencies and potential lawsuits. I’m also still in love with my ex which is really hard. This has not been a good year for me, it seems everything is going downhill and getting worse. I’ve just been trying to take it day by day, but my OCD thinking gets the best of me.

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More ear problems

I’ve had problems with ear infections and fluid buildup since I was a kid. I went to the doctor Friday because my ear was bothering me. She said there’s no infection (thankfully) but fluid is built up inside a tube in my ear (no idea what it’s called). She told me to take Claritin and Flonase. So far no improvement. I’ve been feeling a bit dizzy and just blah overall. I wish this stuff would clear out so I feel better.

Hopefully by Thursday I’m doing better because I have other appointments I can’t miss.

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So much spam

Wow, I had over 500 users who registered to go through and almost all of them were spam. If you got deleted and weren’t a spammer, re-register (I think that’s fixed now) and fill in some information on your profile so I know you aren’t a spammer.

Anyway, things haven’t been going very well for me lately. As I may have mentioned before, I suffer from major depressive disorder. My doctor prescribed me some Wellbutrin and that didn’t work out at all. It made me so sick. I haven’t been motivated to do anything with this site let alone blog. He’s switching me to a new medication called Luvox, but I don’t think I’ll be able to start it until Monday. I’m really hoping it will help because I hate feeling so lousy. I’m also hoping my insurance will cover it or I’ll need something else. I’m not a big fan of my doctor (they keep changing them around on me) he’s just really…out there. I think our personalities clash. I’m still going to therapy every two weeks and that helps a little bit, I get along with my therapist really well.

On Monday night I’m seeing Norma Jean, then the following week The Devil Wears Prada. In December I have Every Time I Die and Impending Doom. I really wish I went to see Nine Inch Nails last weekend but tickets were too expensive. The shows I go to cost around $20 for a ticket. I wouldn’t pay $100 for a ticket, that just seems like way too much to me. My doctor says he’s happy I’m going to these because it’s good I’m at least trying to get out of the house.

I also did something I thought I’d never do, get an iPhone. I had always had Android since it first came out, and to be honest, I miss it. The iPhone is okay just not as great as people make it out to be.

The reason I haven’t been writing

My depression unfortunately has gotten worse. I’ve always struggled with depression, but it seems after the accident I got into (don’t want to get into too many details, I bumped into someone on a scooter because I didn’t see him). I’ve never been in an accident before and I guess the whole thing shook me up even though it wasn’t a bad accident. I have a new doctor now, and he switched my medication in hopes that it will make me feel better. That stuff takes awhile to get into my system and start working, so we’ll see.

I think part of it also has to do with being so far away from my family, I really miss them. I don’t know, maybe at some point I’ll have to move back to Pennsylvania even though I hated it there. I hope it doesn’t come to that. It’s hard to care about things (like this site) because of how lousy I’ve been feeling. Depression is just a rough thing to go through especially if it’s severe. All the weight I’ve gained hasn’t helped either, I just hope I start feeling better at some point.

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