One week til Christmas

It certainly doesn’t feel like Christmas is soon. I used to have a Christmas tree, lights, and other decorations, but the rats in the old apartment chewed it all up. It all had to be thrown away. My mom got me one thing I wanted:


A Hello Kitty sweater

It’s always hard during holidays because nobody can afford plane tickets to see each other. I’ve asked my mom to Skype but she won’t do it, she doesn’t really want anything to do with technology I guess. I ask her every year and it’s always a no. I feel kind of hurt that she doesn’t want to make the effort to video chat with me. I don’t know, I can’t help but feel like she doesn’t really care to see me even if it’s only by video chat. Maybe I’m overreacting.

Worried about my dad

I was talking to my mom on the phone today and she told me he’s not doing well. He’s being sent to an endocrinologist and a heart doctor. He has Diabetes really bad and has heart disease. His blood sugar keeps dropping too much and he had a quadruple bypass when I was still in high school, so I’m really worried. He’s so stubborn so he tends to not go to doctors and do what he’s supposed to. My mom said she doesn’t know when he’ll be seeing these doctors. Please keep him in your prayers and thoughts. If anything happens to him (or my mom) I will definitely need to see a grief counselor. I don’t know if I’d mentally be able to handle it.

My parents moved again

My parents moved again (seems like they’re always moving) to a town called Hermitage, PA. I’ve never heard of it, but that’s where they could find a house they could afford. Apparently they didn’t like apartment living and wanted another house. I wish I could afford one because I hate apartment living.

My mom will be flying out to visit later this month, I’m looking forward to it because I haven’t seen her in a about a year.

Haven’t had much to blog about lately, been sick (again) and am feeling better finally. I can’t believe it’s October already, where did September go? It went by so fast. I’m liking the cooler weather (if you can call 80 degree temperatures cooler) but nights seem pretty chilly. It looks like it’ll be warming back up into the 90’s though. At least it’s not triple digits like it was.

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I miss you grandma

grandma

It’s been about 9 years since you left me, but I still miss you every day. I wish you were still here because you completely understood me and was a best friend to me.

I remember dancing to this song with her as a child, she’d play it on her record player and it reminds me of happier times.

I really miss my mom

I’ve been really missing my mom, I talk to her on the phone a lot and occasionally we e-mail, and maybe video chat once in a blue moon. It’s not the same as seeing her in person. It’s hard for me that she’s on the other side of the country. I wish she was able to fly out and see me, but she doesn’t know when she can. I’ve felt like I’ve really needed her especially during the hard times I’m going through. She is the most important person in my life and it’s hard. I know making the decision to stay here was the right one for me, but I just wish she could visit. She said spring or fall, seems like a long time to wait.