Today is my birthday. I spent most of it watching season 2 of Atypical on Netflix and doing laundry. I feel older physically because my health has not been great. I saw my primary care doctor yesterday, and I will have to go back to do a lung test because she thinks I may have asthma from all the years of smoking. I’ve told her I’ve tried everything to quit (Vaping, Chantix, Wellbutrin, patches, lozenges) and nothing’s working. She also said my depression needs to be managed better. I agree that it does, I have an appointment later this month for that. I’m in therapy weekly also and he acknowledges that I’ve had a really rough few years and that it would be hard to quit smoking when my mental health hasn’t been great. I also saw a nutritionist because my blood sugar was elevated. I know I need to change my diet but it’s hard to feel motivated with depression.
I know, not a good birthday post but it’s just like any other day to me.
I’m 34 today. I’m starting to feel old. I don’t really have any plans today but I’ll probably be drinking. I found a small round birthday cake at the grocery store bakery marked down to $4.99, so I bought it. My mom got me a Yankee candle (I love those) and some other little things. I’ve said this before, birthdays aren’t really a big deal anymore the older I get. I’ve been under a lot of stress because of my current living situation, but today I’m going to try not to stress too much.
I miss birthdays when I was a kid, spending them with all the family and especially my grandparents. They spoiled me and I loved it. My grandparents died, so birthdays and holidays aren’t the same. I have some old pictures of me with my grandmother on my birthday. Here are some pictures of me with my grandmother on my 2nd and 5th birthday:
I’m 33 today. It’s just like any other day. When you get older, birthdays aren’t as exciting as they were when you were a kid.
I got an Amazon gift card from my mom (it came in the cupcake tin), a card from her and my dad, and I got the cake that was on sale for $5. I don’t plan on doing a whole lot today, mostly just relaxing.
Today is my 31st birthday. I’ve noticed as you get older, birthdays don’t seem to be as big of a deal as they used to be. Not many people have wished me a happy birthday. Oh well. I bought a cake for myself (since family is all on the other side of the country) and it wasn’t very good. Maybe next time I’ll order a cake that has the right frosting I like on it. Here’s a picture of it anyway:
It’s hard to believe I’m 31, sometimes I don’t feel like it. I’m going to still try to enjoy the rest of my day even though it is uneventful.
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I can’t believe I’m 30 already, time sure flies. I feel like it just hasn’t sunk in yet that I’m no longer in my 20’s. I didn’t have an exciting birthday, just had some cake. My birthday card still hasn’t arrived yet which was disappointing. My parents always send me something. Hopefully I’ll get it soon. <:-P