My new case manager is great

I’ve been having issues with my case manager (previous) for months, and I just got a new one. To read about all the case manager woes, visit sometimes.blue. She is actually helpful and responsive, unlike the other one. The old one would schedule transportation to appointments in the middle of the night instead of the afternoon because he couldn’t be bothered to check. I got tired of getting woke up because of it. He had also told me that I was on a housing list as of last year. I find out today from my new case manager that this wasn’t true. I was really upset. I now have to wait at least a year on the list. My new case manager brought over some boxes to pack to move to the new apartment. I also asked about assistance with moving, and was told I need to try to find other resources first. I have to call at least 6 different places to see if they will help. I have to document who I’ve called and what they said, and if they all say no, then I can fill out an application for moving services. I’m going to feel like such an idiot doing that. I think it’s stupid they’re making me do that. I have to do what I have to do, I guess.

An exterminator is coming on Monday to do an inspection, I can’t wait for this to be over. I found out that the lady next door’s apartment is not acceptable to management and she has to rectify it immediately. I found out that she has had a roach problem all this time and never reported it as she was required to per the lease. That might be contributing to the problems I’m having with pests, although I don’t have roaches. I have lived here for 4 years, 3 years was fine until all these new people moved in around me this past year. I’ve had nothing but problems since then. I just have to hang in there until I can get moved.

Moving next month

I’m moving next month, to a different apartment, same place. I’m feeling really overwhelmed and am not even prepared yet. I don’t see the point in packing yet, because I don’t want boxes just sitting around for a month and a half. There will be a lot of cleaning that has to be done as well. It will also be nice to get away from this rodent issue and not have an exterminator coming over every week. Neighbors have also been bugging me a lot. They’re starting to come to my door when I don’t want them to. People just don’t understand that because of my autism, I prefer to spend most of my time alone. I also don’t like my routines being interrupted. I put a “do not disturb” sign on my door, hoping that will deter them from coming to the door. I don’t want to be rude, but I don’t go to their doors, so I don’t know why they are coming to mine. The new apartment will be upstairs, so hopefully people will be less likely to go up there to bother me. I discussed this with my therapist, and she told me I need to set boundaries. I just don’t know how to tell people to leave me alone without coming off as rude. I’m not good with confrontation at all. One neighbor who never used to talk to me before, is always talking to me and coming to the door. Yesterday he said he would bring me home some boxes if I would help him carry his drums to the car. I agreed, but regretted it because by the time he wanted them carried out, I was ready to go to bed. I don’t think I was much help because I was falling asleep. I feel bad, but if people want me to help them they need to ask during the day. I go to bed early. I hope he isn’t mad at me because he saw me outside and didn’t say anything. There’s nothing I can do if he is mad though. I can’t please everyone.

Now I’m definitely done selling on eBay

Update: Today I received the phone back with a note. That further proved he didn’t know how eBay worked, because any other buyer would have filed a not as described claim, and then eBay would make me pay return shipping. That’s why I just refunded him, because it would have cost more to pay return shipping as well as the refund. I’m not sure why he paid to ship it back, the speaker doesn’t in fact work as it should (which I didn’t know that it didn’t) so I can’t use or resell it. Strangest buyer I’ve ever dealt with.

Someone bought a phone from me last week, I shipped it out, he received it, then 2 days later he sent an e-mail claiming that the internal speaker didn’t work. I had no way to verify that this was true, but he sent another e-mail threatening to take it up with eBay. What I find odd about this whole thing is that he was sending e-mails to my personal e-mail, when he should have been sending messages through eBay. I don’t know if he was just someone who didn’t understand how eBay works, or what. I ended up just refunding his money because it would have cost more for me to pay the return shipping in addition to the refund. So now he has the money paid back, as well as the item. So honestly, I was the one who got screwed here. The e-mails made me feel uneasy, so I blocked him because I want no further communication in this way. If he has something he wants to say, he should do it via eBay. Something just didn’t feel right about the whole thing. I noticed that he really had no account activity for a year. It really seems like he wanted to contact me without eBay being able to see. No buyer has ever contacted me outside of eBay. he also didn’t seem to understand that I was in a different time zone, and was just overall really impatient. If I had a problem with something I bought on eBay, I wouldn’t continue to e-mail and would give the seller a decent amount of time to resolve it, because people have other things going on in life besides eBay.

I have ended all my other listings and am done. I will now just use the account to buy if I choose to.

This is getting out of hand

Here’s yet another story about a teen committing suicide because of bullying. This makes me sad and angry at the same time. From grades 5-12, I was bullied daily. I just didn’t fit in and people thought I was “weird”. I even ended up in the hospital for wanting to commit suicide. I also got bullied because my parents couldn’t afford designer clothes and shoes. Some may not agree, but I think all schools should have uniforms to prevent that from happening. What’s worse, is that bullying is so bad it’s making teens take their own lives, and schools won’t do a thing about it. When I reported the bullying to school officials, it made them bully me even more for “tattling”.

A few years after I graduated high school, the school decided to offer classes online. I really wish they had that option while I was there, that would have been a much better option for me. I would also miss a lot of school because of my anxiety (the school was so huge it had two separate buildings) and fear of how I would be treated. I was lucky I was able to graduate with as much school as I missed.

Luckily none of the bullying was physical, but the verbal abuse hurt just as much.

I miss my freedom

I wish that incident never happened last year. It really ruined my life. Now I no longer have a car and can’t get my license back. It’s so difficult to get transportation scheduled to get to appointments, I have to walk in 110 degree heat to get groceries and medications, I need moving boxes but have no idea how to get to a place to get them or how to even get them home.

I don’t want to use Uber because they could end up charging whatever they wanted to my card (I’ve seen articles on this). At least cabs take cash, that’s how I prefer to pay so that there are no surprises later, but it’s costly.

I’m always stuck at home because I can’t get anywhere. Buses are a panic attack waiting to happen. I wish there was a cheaper way to get around without taking a bus.

I’m just sick of this

I really can’t deal with this rat problem anymore. There’s obviously an infestation. The exterminator setting traps is not fixing the problem. It has to be determined how they are getting in and that entrance sealed off. I really don’t think anyone has been making enough effort to get rid of them. I can’t move until August. They can’t keep ignoring the problem or doing very little about it because nobody else is going to want to move into this apartment after me with this problem. I’ve lived here for 4 years, and the past year I have had nothing but problems with rats and other pests. It’s the type of people moving in around me. The problem started next door, but because she has a cat, they’re all over here now. Nobody should be stuck in an apartment and have to live with something like this, it is a health hazard. I have a feeling time is going to go by really slow, August seems so far away.

Update on eBay situation

On a previous post, I mentioned problems with a buyer leaving unfair negative feedback. A member of a Facebook eBay group told me to call eBay and they should remove the feedback. So I called eBay, they looked at the messages and my listing. The listing clearly stated that shipping was UPS only and they saw that he demanded me to ship via USPS because he had a PO box. He knew UPS couldn’t deliver to a PO box but bid anyway. eBay sided with me and removed the feedback he left. I’m glad I was able to get that removed, because that was ridiculous.

People just don’t get it

I get tired of having to explain myself to people. Most people I encounter think I’m just being “shy”. I also don’t know why these people practically force me to talk to them. 85% of the time, I want to be left alone. You’d think that would be obvious? I’d think that more people would be aware of autism by now, but apparently not. When I was forced to do that substance abuse treatment by the judge, none of the people there understood even though I explained it at least 20 times. Neighbors are always trying to get me to talk to them. One guy in particular is nice and everything, but he seems to get upset when I don’t say hi to him. I don’t even think to say hi to people, I keep to myself. Socializing isn’t something I really think about. I just like to go about my day doing what I need to do, and feel like these people just keep “interrupting”. I shouldn’t even have to explain myself, but people won’t let it go and I feel forced into talking to them.

My advice is if you see someone who is by themselves or seem absorbed in what they’re doing, think about the fact that they may have autism. If they don’t seem like they want to talk, don’t force it. If they want to talk, they will. It should be voluntary.

Moving on August 15th

Yesterday, I had a talk with the manager about transferring to a different apartment. I will be moving to a different building in August. I can’t move sooner because I was only given 2 apartments to choose from. There is a couple living in the apartment I’m moving to, and they won’t be moving out until the end of July. I just can’t deal with the rodents anymore. I’m also tired of the exterminator coming every week. Every Tuesday, I have to stay home and wait for him to show up. There are other things I need to be doing than waiting around. When I move to the new apartment, hopefully I won’t have to deal with rodents or an exterminator coming over all the time. It’s going to be a lot of work to move, but the rodents are forcing me out. I just want to live normally without having to think of keeping everything put away or hidden so they don’t get chewed up or eaten. I hope they’ll be tearing up the kitchen to find out the source of the problem so whoever moves in here after me doesn’t have to deal with it.

On an unrelated note, I have made changes to the hosting page. I’m still offering free hosting, but I have added paid options as well.

I don’t think I’ll be selling on eBay anymore

Last night an auction ended for an item I was selling. The buyer paid and started making demands. He demanded that I ship immediately and through a different carrier than what was listed. I chose UPS because they actually come and pick up packages on time, when USPS does not. The listing stated it would be shipped via UPS, and I couldn’t ship to his PO box. I told him this, that the listing stated ship time and what service, and that I knew that I could not ship to his PO box via UPS as stated in the listing. I cancelled the order and refunded him. He seemed really mad and left me negative feedback claiming there was no communication (there was). I offered free shipping, so I was the one who would have had to pay for it, not him. If he didn’t agree to the shipping, or knew it was being shipped via UPS that I wouldn’t be able to ship to a PO box, he should not have bid. There was an option on eBay to report him for telling me to ship other than what was on the listing, so I did. I doubt anything will come of it, but my 100% positive feedback took a dive because he didn’t read the listing.

I ended up giving the next highest bidder a second chance offer, and he bought it. I really hope this guy doesn’t cause any problems, but with eBay and unreasonable buyers, who knows.

Moving to a different apartment in August

Unfortunately, the issues just keep going on. The rats will not go away, and there’s a bed bug situation in the area. The neighbors are doing things they shouldn’t be doing (dumpster diving) and aren’t learning. Unfortunately, they have to be caught doing it before anything can be done about it. The exterminator determined that they’re coming from upstairs. I saw the people upstairs haul a mattress out a few months ago. That does not get rid of bed bugs. They should have reported them right away, as it states in the lease. The exterminator is doing an inspection of their apartment as well as 2 others around me.

There’s an apartment in a certain building that I’m interested in, but someone is living there right now and they won’t be moving out until the end of July. After they move out, the apartment will have to be cleaned and painted. I have to go to the office on Monday to sign the paperwork. It sucks that the rent will be going up by $60 a month, but there’s no way out of that. I still have to wait until I’m next on the list for subsidized housing and that could take years. I didn’t want to move right away because I need time to figure out how and where I’m going to get enough boxes to pack everything. I really don’t want to go to all the trouble of moving, but I don’t want the rats to destroy any more of my furniture. I think once I get out of this particular apartment and away from all these issues, I’ll start feeling better.

Emergency at the clinic today

Normally I post happenings at the clinic on sometimes.blue, but this I decided to post here. I had a therapy appointment today, and it went well. I was waiting in the lobby for a cab home when things took a turn for the worse. First there was a lot of whispering, then someone shouted “call 911” and then there was a “code yellow” alert over the loudspeaker and a lady said to hurry and come with her. Everyone was running out the back of the building. A code yellow means someone on the premises has a weapon. My case manager and a few people were trying to keep me calm because I started to go into a panic attack. They were all saying this was a drill, but clearly it was not because cops were everywhere and a woman was arrested. Very scary situation. I don’t know if this will be on the news or not because terrible things happen in Phoenix all the time. This was probably more of a mental health issue than a criminal one, but I don’t know any more details. I’ll update this if I hear any more.

Another bed bug situation

Last year, I got bed bugs really bad. I have never had them in my life. Seems funny to me that after a new guy moved in who was bringing in used furniture from the dumpster got them and then I did. Of course the apartment manager didn’t accept this reason and blamed it on me. I was forced to pay over $200 for the treatments which didn’t even get rid of them. Another exterminator had to come in and get rid of them.

Fast forward to now, I’ve been seeing a few of them here and there in the bathroom sink. I notified the manager because I’m required to do that as per my lease. I told her that if they’re being found in the bathroom, they’re probably coming from another apartment. She said that that was plausible, but is probably residual activity, again blaming it on me. Well, the exterminator came yesterday, found no bed bug activity in my apartment, and determined they were coming from another apartment. I got an e-mail from the manager saying that no activity was found in my apartment and that an inspection will be done next Tuesday on neighboring apartments. No apology or anything. I hope they find out who it is because if they’re not reporting the problem to the manager, they’ll get in serious trouble. I don’t know how they’re going to be able to properly inspect the lady next door. I’ve been in her apartment, and there is so much stuff that you can barely walk in there. She can’t even sleep in the bedroom because it is literally full of boxes. Hopefully something is done about this whole situation.

Tried local buy & sell apps, scammers galore

I downloaded OfferUp and LetGo, local buying and selling apps. They’re nice apps, but they are really lacking in security as far as people who aren’t who they say they are or are trying to scam people. Yesterday, a lady who had a high rating on OfferUp messaged me saying she was interested in an item I was selling and wanted to meet. I told her where to meet me and she asked if I’d be ready in 30 minutes. I said yes. She ended up not showing up, and never replied to my message. Today, the messages disappeared and so did her profile. I felt stupid waiting for her, I thought that since she had a good rating, then she was legit. Today, a guy messaged me on LetGo interested in the item, and he seemed really off. Then he said he was going to send a certified check because of his work schedule. I knew right away that this was a scam, and he then suddenly deleted his account. OfferUp has a verification option to scan your driver’s license, but it’s optional. I think things like that should be mandatory to stop the scammers. Both apps give the option to report a user for scamming or not showing up, but that doesn’t do any good when they delete their accounts. There are many complaints of scammers in the reviews of the apps in the Play Store.

I don’t really like selling on eBay, because I’ve been scammed in the past. Years ago, I was selling a Bible cover brand new with tags because it was the wrong size. A lady bought it, I shipped it, and when she got it she messaged me a picture of what I’m not certain even was the actual Bible cover, covered in ink stains. I knew for a fact that it did not have ink stains when I sent it to her. I told her to send it back for a refund, but she refused and opened an eBay case against me. She was still refusing to return it, so I ended up just refunding her to get her to stop bothering me. Then she left me a negative saying I didn’t refund the shipping when I did. I had to block her so she couldn’t bid on any of my items again.

Worried about my dad

I was talking to my mom on the phone today and she told me he’s not doing well. He’s being sent to an endocrinologist and a heart doctor. He has Diabetes really bad and has heart disease. His blood sugar keeps dropping too much and he had a quadruple bypass when I was still in high school, so I’m really worried. He’s so stubborn so he tends to not go to doctors and do what he’s supposed to. My mom said she doesn’t know when he’ll be seeing these doctors. Please keep him in your prayers and thoughts. If anything happens to him (or my mom) I will definitely need to see a grief counselor. I don’t know if I’d mentally be able to handle it.

I really hate to do this

I have a GoFundMe set up because according to Verizon now, I still owe on the phone that was stolen. I was making monthly payments on the phone and I was still paying on it. I hate to ask for help with this, but I really can’t afford to pay the $208 I owe on it all at once. I had to enter another payment agreement to get a new phone (that I received on Monday). The $208 will be added to my next bill which is due on June 7th. If anyone can donate even a little bit, it will help lower the bill. In return, I can offer free hosting and a permanent link to your site on here. I’m just at a loss about what to do here. I was going to keep the phone until it was paid off, but some asshole stole it and Verizon doesn’t seem to care.

I might get bad feedback from this, but I’ve seen GoFundMe pages set up for worse things.

My phone was stolen yesterday

I am so devastated. Yesterday I had a therapy appointment, and because of the amount of stress I’m under and lack of sleep due to insomnia, my phone fell out of my bag in the cab. They created a lost and found claim and said they’d e-mail me, but I haven’t heard anything. Nobody has been honest enough to return it to me. It’s highly unlikely that I’ll get it back. When I first talked to Verizon, they said I couldn’t get a new phone without paying the balance I owed on the one that got stolen. A few hours after that, mysteriously, when I added a new phone to my cart and checked out, the balance on the old phone disappeared and they only charged me a $20 upgrade fee. Maybe they realized how upset I was and decided to help me out after all. Unfortunately, it won’t arrive until Monday. I have a doctor appointment then so I guess the doctor’s office will have to call me a cab.

This whole situation sucks. I’ve never lost a phone, ever. I’m having to use Skype to call my mom, I tried to call the clinic but they wouldn’t accept the call. So really the only way people can contact me right now is by e-mail. I am mad about whoever took the phone, and I’m also concerned about all my personal information that’s in there. I changed the passwords to my e-mail, social media accounts, and bank account. If I didn’t do that, then whoever has it could just open the apps and access all my accounts. I also suspended my service so whoever has it can’t use my account to call and text. It’s just one thing after another.

I’m pretty mad right now, I need to vent

Out of the blue, I received a text from the woman I used to be friends with that I cut out of my life because of how she treated me. She said “what, you don’t talk to me anymore?” I was like no, not anymore after how you’ve been treating me. The last time we spoke, she said she was never really my friend. That was the last straw for me. She says she can’t remember saying that. How convenient, I remember it clear as day. All she had done was accuse me of messing around with her boyfriend (who I have absolutely no interest in), lie to me, and use me. At least 90% of the things she’d talk to me about were complaints about said boyfriend. I think she did the right thing leaving him, she would always complain about how horrible he was to her. The only reason she wants to get back with him is because she doesn’t like where she’s living now. I really don’t know why she would want to get back with him, doesn’t make any sense to me. She left a voicemail trying to make me feel bad for her, which is what she often does. She just started talking to me like nothing even happened. She has a very unhealthy obsession with him, and it affected our friendship. All this time, I was just being too nice and kept forgiving her when she didn’t deserve it. I’m not going to play her games anymore. I had to block her number again because Verizon’s blocks only last for 90 days, and the block expired. Since she was blocked for that long, I really don’t know why she would still be trying to contact me. If this doesn’t stop, I’ll have to go the legal route to get her to stop bothering me because she just won’t listen.

It’s finally over

Some of you may have been wondering what has been going on as far as the court stuff, but today was my last court date and everything is public record now, so it’s ok to talk about it. I want to start off by saying that if I find any rude comments they’ll be deleted, I already feel bad enough about the whole thing.

On August 6, 2015, I was arrested for DUI/DWI and 2 counts of hit and run, as well as several traffic violations. I had become addicted to my prescription Klonopin and was abusing it. I would be so out of it that I didn’t know what I was saying and doing. I don’t know why I got in the car that day, I honestly felt fine. I ended up in another city not too far from here, and rear-ended a guy. I panicked and drove off. Shortly after that, the police were behind me so I pulled into a gas station and got out. They were asking me questions like “why didn’t you stop?”, all I could say in response was that I was scared. The police ended up getting my insurance information to give to the guy I hit, then read me my rights, handcuffed me, and took me to the jail. My car was also towed to the impound lot. At the jail, they had me do those field sobriety tests and I failed miserably. They took my license and said it would be suspended for 90 days, and gave me a temporary license. Then they had a nurse take my blood. After all that, they gave me paperwork stating when I had to appear in court and let me go. Later I found out that I had admitted everything to the police later on when I received the police report.

When I got to court, it was for my arraignment. The judge read me the charges and said for the DUI/DWI charges, there would be mandatory jail time. I also filled out an application for a public defender and was approved because I couldn’t afford my own attorney. I had several court dates after that, none of which anything really happened. My public defender wanted to send my case to mental health court because he got all my mental health records. I don’t know if I had to go to at least 5 court dates where nothing happened. A lot of it was waiting for the results of the blood test. A few months ago, I went to mental health court and the judge ordered me to do 16 hours of drug treatment and drug testing. I successfully completed those, then I had a court date for March 15th. At this point, I was presented with a plea agreement by my public defender. For pleading guilty, I got 1 day in jail suspended (meaning I didn’t have to actually serve it), had to be fingerprinted and have a mug shot taken at the police department, and attend a restitution hearing. The DUI/DWI, 2 counts of hit and run were dropped, and I was only charged with reckless driving. I think that because I had no prior criminal record, that that was why I didn’t get sent to jail.

Fast forward to today, 8 months after my arrest, I attended the restitution hearing. The judge said I didn’t owe anything and was free to go. I wish the doctor who prescribed the Klonopin would have noticed that I had a problem, but he didn’t. I didn’t finally admit to him that I had a problem until after I got arrested. I also ended up in a psychiatric hospital for a week because the whole arrest and situation made me have a mental breakdown. While I was in the hospital, they did a blood test and determined that I had overdosed on the Klonopin.

I can’t believe this had been going on for 8 months, I wish they could have come to a resolution a lot sooner. I was under large amounts of stress during that time. I’m glad it’s finally over and I can finally move on. Unfortunately, I couldn’t afford to get my car out of impound, so I left it there. There was also so much damage to my car that I wouldn’t have been able to afford to get it fixed either. My license is still suspended because I owe the MVD an abandoned vehice fee of $600 and would have to pay that to reinstate my license. There was no way I could afford that. I also recently got a traffic survival school order in the mail because of the reckless driving charge. I couldn’t do that either because I can’t afford to go to the school. My license will just have to stay suspended, I just can’t afford everything they’re asking me to do to keep it. I don’t really see the point anyway because I no longer have the car.

It’s much more difficult getting around now, I don’t have the freedom I once had. Even if I did have the money to pay everything and get my license back, it would be a bad idea to drive while I’m on medication. Out here, they don’t care if you’re on prescription drugs, drunk, or street drugs, it’s all treated the same. I wouldn’t want to risk getting another DUI, because for it to happen again, I would definitely go to jail.