Today I met with a lady from mental health services and she is going to help me find another apartment. She already had a place in mind but didn’t remember the name of it. I told her everything that has been going on during the past 5 years I’ve lived here. I also told her that all the problems (mainly with the pests) have made my depression a lot worse and that I need to move for my own well-being. I moved to a different unit last year in this complex because the pest problems were bad in the original unit I lived in. I thought things would be better in the new unit, but they aren’t. Obviously, most of this place is infested.
I meet with her again next Friday and she said she’ll have a list of places and we can go look at them. My lease isn’t up until the end of January, I’ll see if I can get out of it early but I might not be able to. If worst comes to worst I’ll have to stay until then. I renewed for a 6 month lease in August, not knowing the pest problem would get even worse. People around here don’t treat me very well either. I’m glad I didn’t sign a year lease. I’m also going to do in-home counseling. Now that I’ve gotten some help, I feel a bit more hopeful that I can get out of here and start feeling better. I won’t if I continue to stay. It’s time to move on to better things.
I saw my psychiatrist today and he prescribed a medication that’s used to treat Bipolar. I don’t know if I’m Bipolar or not but I keep struggling with mood problems and depression. I’m also on other medication to help with mood. Most of it is situational. Since I haven’t heard from the navigator who was going to help me find another place, I’ll have to try to get in touch with the lady who did the intake.
That person who stole my card information last month is still causing trouble. They tried making a purchase from iTunes, and I got an email saying an order is ready for pickup at a Toys R Us in Indiana. The old card was closed and has been closed for over a month but they are still trying to use it. I called the bank and Toys R Us and neither were of any help. I wish this person would get caught but that probably won’t happen. Since all that happened, my email spam folder has been filling up with thousands of porn emails. That wasn’t happening before so it wouldn’t surprise me if that person signed me up for all of that. There are some really messed up people out there.
I’m 34 today. I’m starting to feel old. I don’t really have any plans today but I’ll probably be drinking. I found a small round birthday cake at the grocery store bakery marked down to $4.99, so I bought it. My mom got me a Yankee candle (I love those) and some other little things. I’ve said this before, birthdays aren’t really a big deal anymore the older I get. I’ve been under a lot of stress because of my current living situation, but today I’m going to try not to stress too much.
I miss birthdays when I was a kid, spending them with all the family and especially my grandparents. They spoiled me and I loved it. My grandparents died, so birthdays and holidays aren’t the same. I have some old pictures of me with my grandmother on my birthday. Here are some pictures of me with my grandmother on my 2nd and 5th birthday: