My anxiety has been horrible lately and the only thing that seems to help is by distracting myself by binge watching movies and TV shows on Netflix.
Some of the good movies and TV shows I’ve watched lately:
- Stranger Things
- The OA
- Degrassi Next Class
- Fuller House
- Finding Dory
- The Lazarus Project
Unfortunately, I’ll be waiting awhile for new seasons. There are more to watch, though. At least I found a way to keep my mind off of things even if it’s only for a little while.
I received a 5-day eviction notice on my door this morning for non-payment of rent. I was mad because it was paid a week ago. I took the notice and went down to the office to see why I even received the notice. They couldn’t seem to find the payment and had to try to track it down. They finally did find it and it was in fact paid. I have lived here for 4 years, the rent has never once been late or not paid. Since this place was bought out, there is all new staff. Either way, they should have actually checked to see if it was paid before putting out that notice. The notice also includes late fees which I’m not paying because the rent was paid on time. If that wasn’t bad enough, the constant noise of the construction work day in and day out of this place has been leaving me with a lot of headaches and stress. Other people who live here are sick of it too. One neighbor said she used to like it here but with all these workers new management hired, the noise is just too much and she doesn’t like it here much anymore. I’m sure a lot of people are going to be moving out when their leases are up, some already have.
My mental health clinic has really been getting on my nerves too. My case manager never has time to even call me back, so peer support called me. I don’t really like her. She called me last Friday morning saying she wanted to do a home visit in an hour. I said no, an hour is not enough notice for me. So then she came in the afternoon. As soon as she got here, she ran straight to my bathroom. After that, she wanted to leave. She didn’t remember anything we discussed that day and told me things she was going to do that she never did. She doesn’t understand my autism or why I need advanced notice of things, and why I have difficulty with some things. She just doesn’t listen or remember anything I say. I hung up on her out of frustration. I’m just really stressed out and tired because I’m having trouble sleeping again. I wish I could just catch a break.
Anyway, I got this at Barnes & Noble to get my thoughts and feelings out. I still use the worry journal but this is for everything else.