Seeing Skrillex on Thursday

Edit: It looks like some storms are coming through, hope it doesn’t affect me being able to go.

Thursday night I will be seeing Skrillex (another electronic music producer).

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I’m so unbelievably anxious about this. I guess it’s because it’s a venue I’ve never been to, because places I’ve never been make me completely anxious. When I get to a venue and am inside I start to feel better, but the fear of what will or will not happen before it comes to that point is what sets my anxiety into overdrive. Especially parking lots, god those make me anxious for some reason. My anxiety disorder is so bad that I will get sick before having to go somewhere. I’m currently on Xanax, but that doesn’t seem to be strong enough to ease the anxiety enough. My doctor also put me on something else for anxiety, but it doesn’t help much either. My brain constantly goes through this “what if?” cycle and I can’t calm down. I keep trying to tell myself that everything will be alright but it doesn’t always help. Ever since I was a kid, my brain always used this type of thinking, to worry about something bad always happening. I need to try to focus on the present rather than the future all the time. My illnesses get in the way of me getting out much, all I really go out and do is get groceries or go to the pharmacy. I need to get out more and step out of my comfort zone a little bit. I really miss my therapist (he left to take another job elsewhere), he wasn’t much help because he tried everything with me, but I actually find this blog more therapeutic.

Hopefully the rain holds off for that night, because it’s an outdoor venue and I can’t see them having all that electronic equipment working in the rain. We’ve been getting a lot of monsoons, more than usual. I’m just going to try to relax for now as hard as that may be.

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Erin

I'm Erin, a 34 year old childfree woman with Asperger's living in Arizona. I enjoy blogging, movies, reading, journal writing, Android, The X-Files, metal, 80's and electronic music, cute things, ducks, pink, social networks, Hello Kitty, and Pusheen.

One comment on “Seeing Skrillex on Thursday

  1. Wow you’re so lucky to be seeing Skrillex. To be honest, I haven’t been to many concerts but I can see a Skrillex one being such a rave lol. But good luck with your anxiety, I’m sure you’ll be just fine. :)

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