Stressed out

I’m so stressed out about these roach infestation problems because of my neighbors (as previously mentioned in an earlier entry). I went back down to the office today because I saw another one and had a talk with one of the staff. She said they will be coming back on Monday to do a more thorough extermination which means a lot of work for me. I have to remove everything from the kitchen including everything in the cupboards, closet, and move my furniture. After this is done, I have to stay out of my apartment for 3 hours. The lady in the office reserved the clubhouse (a place where residents can reserve for parties or whatever that has cable, a kitchen, and all that good stuff) so I can stay there during that time. It’s going to be so much work getting all my stuff (which is a lot) and moving it all out, but I want to get rid of these pesky things. They’re also going to do this to the upstairs apartment which is where they’re coming from. I’m just completely frustrated and disgusted about all of this. #-o

On top of all that, the police, fire trucks, and ambulance were here today because apparently a couple was fighting and the guy lit the apartment on fire and the woman jumped off a two story balcony breaking her ankle severely. Things are really going down the toilet here, it’s making me regret renewing my lease last month.

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Prize Candle Review

I don’t know if you’ve seen Prize Candle advertised on Facebook, but I did. They are having a buy one get one free deal for new customers. I bought “Beach House” and “Moroccan Amber”.

I just got to my prize today in the Beach House candle.

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Each candle contains a ring valued at $5-5,000. It comes with a code inside the plastic container from the candle to enter on the Prize Candle website for appraisal. My ring appraised at $10. Here’s the ring:

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It’s small and will only fit my pinky finger. You can’t choose a ring size, what you get is what you get. For $25 a candle, I don’t think it’s worth it. The candles don’t have a very strong scent and are small. It’s rare that you’ll get an expensive ring, but that’s why the prices on the candles are so high. If you want a decent candle, you’re better off buying a Yankee.

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French bulldog puppy confused by doorstop

I thought this video was so cute and wanted to share, you can watch it here.

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New medication

My doctor finally got my insurance to approve my Pristiq. Hoping I get some positive results from it, I start it tomorrow. The Chantix isn’t working out so well, I’m still smoking. I don’t think the dose is high enough, but I am noticing some nausea when smoking.

I’m still trying to handle this breakup the best I can, but I’ve been depressed and haven’t felt like doing anything. This kind of thing is always hard on me. I know I can get through it, I just need time.

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Back on an anti-depressant

Since my insurance won’t cover what the doctor prescribed me, I’m back on Prozac. This whole mess with my ex has made me really depressed. I decided I can’t be friends with her even though I tried. My mental health is more important and she’s going to have to understand that. I need to move on with my life, how am I going to do that with her around me all the time? I know I keep going on and on about this but it’s really messing me up.

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Talked to my ex-girlfriend

Edit: I’ve done some thinking and told her we can’t be friends and I don’t want her in my life anymore. I have to think of myself and my mental health. Seeing her and being around her will not help me move on. She’s probably angry at me, but I have to do what I have to do.

The talk didn’t go so well, things got heated and I burst into tears. I’m feeling really hurt but we’re going to try to be friends. I still don’t like the situation but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m a very emotional person and it’s hard for me to get over things. Hell, I still think about my ex-boyfriend a year ago and get sad sometimes. Breakups are not good for me mentally so I think I should stay single, because every relationship I’ve been in hasn’t worked out. I’ve never been good with people because of my Asperger’s so I tend to upset people a lot because I say exactly what I’m thinking. The fact that I have no anti-depressant doesn’t help either, stupid insurance company won’t cover it. I’m trying to deal with the whole situation the best I can, but sometimes I get mental breakdowns. I need to try to focus on other things to keep my mind off of it.

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