Cheaper isn’t always better

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I tried to switch hosts to save money, and this company (that I won’t mention unless asked) offered unlimited hosting for about $23/year so I jumped on it. I had nothing but problems with FTP, my site not working, no cPanel, etc. I’m sticking with my current host where I pay $8.95/month for unlimited hosting and I’ve had no problems, been with them for awhile. I recommend Host Gator, they’re great.

Mood: Blah
Listening to: Michael Jackson - Beat it

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Note to people who want to register

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I lock some of my entries for personal reasons, so you have to register and login to see them. Lately I’ve been getting tons of spam registrations so it’s possible I didn’t approve you because I couldn’t tell if you were a bot or not. The best thing to do is E-mail me with your username so I can activate you.

Mood: Bored
Listening to: The radio

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Had a bad day

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I don’t know if it’s because it’s that time of the month (sorry, TMI, but relevant), but my OCD was horrible today. I was completely obsessed with all the bills I had to pay, mental health issues, family stuff, friend stuff. I think I drove my friends and my mom crazy too because I couldn’t stop going on and on about the same things. I can’t seem to focus on anything else either. I’m worn out from all of it. Talking to my mom helped a bit, but I can’t seem to talk much to my friends because they have their own issues and probably are tired of hearing about mine. I wish I had more caring and understanding friends.

I wish I could find a way to let this OCD stop controlling my life, but so far doctors haven’t been able to help me. If I could just focus on other things that would be great, but that could be me ADD (which my doctor doesn’t want to treat for some reason).

Just needed to vent.

Mood: Obsessive/tired
Listening to: Nothing

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RIP Robin Williams

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I was very saddened to hear about his death. I loved the movies he was in and he always made me laugh. He also reminded me a lot of my dad. I don’t know what to say other than that, it’s just shocking sad news. What a terrible loss.

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Mood: Sad
Listening to: Nothing

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We made up

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I worked things out with my friend, she apologized to me for her behavior which I wasn’t expecting. Things seem to be ok now.

I haven’t been doing too well, I’ve been under so much stress because the bills keep piling up and I barely have enough to pay them all. I’m doing the best I can though. It is taking it’s toll on me mentally and physically. I hate bills!

I’m also really upset about my doctor’s office new policy. Now they only allow you to come in to see the doctor when you run out of medication. Lately he has just been refilling the medication without having me come in. This isn’t good because I have mental health issues and need to be seeing a doctor. I called them a few days ago because I’m having problems with my anti-depressant (lots of bad side effects). He said to go off the medication. I said I needed a different medication then because it’s not good for me to be off of anti-depressants. I was told to call back on the 18th (why the 18th?) to schedule an appointment. Not liking this at all.

I wish things would improve, but it doesn’t seem to be going that way. Bad luck I guess.

Mood: Stressed
Listening to: Starset - My Demons

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I guess this is it

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It seems my ex-girlfriend and I’s friendship is over. She’s been ignoring me and deleted me from Facebook. I blocked her number too. Being friends with an ex has never worked for me and this isn’t working. I know she has a lot she’s dealing with right now, but I just can’t be friends with her. This is hard to do because she lives by me. I’m going to try to avoid her as much as possible. She’s causing unnecessary stress in my life and it has to stop. She’s also not very understanding of me and my illnesses and I don’t need a friend like that.

I just want to move on with my life.

Mood: Upset
Listening to: Nothing

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It’s too hot for this

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I live in a really old apartment complex without central air, but chillers. The chillers have been going down all evening and it’s been really hot in my apartment. It was fixed for a short period of time until the electricity went out and it shut down again. Nobody has been by to fix it again. I think they need to hire professionals to come look at it. It’s been getting up to 112 during the day and that’s too hot to be without air conditioning. This place has really gone downhill.

Mood: Hot
Listening to: War of Ages - From Ashes

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More ear problems

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I’ve had problems with ear infections and fluid buildup since I was a kid. I went to the doctor Friday because my ear was bothering me. She said there’s no infection (thankfully) but fluid is built up inside a tube in my ear (no idea what it’s called). She told me to take Claritin and Flonase. So far no improvement. I’ve been feeling a bit dizzy and just blah overall. I wish this stuff would clear out so I feel better.

Hopefully by Thursday I’m doing better because I have other appointments I can’t miss.

Mood: Sick
Listening to: War of Ages - Doomsday

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This is so hard

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I’m still completely in love with my ex-girlfriend, we’re just friends now but it’s really hard. I want to be with her so badly but she loves her boyfriend and won’t leave him. She says she loves me back but doesn’t want to get back with me. I don’t think I’ve ever been in love with someone this much before, it hurts. I ended up kissing her yesterday and I shouldn’t have, but she kissed me back. I wish she’d leave that guy who treats her like crap and be with me instead, but I don’t see that happening. I wish I could get over her. :-<

Mood: Bored
Listening to: Nothing

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Funny song

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Came across this song on YouTube and thought it was funny so I thought I’d share.

Mood: Amused
Listening to: Paul Thorn - It's a Great Day to Whup Somebody's Ass

If the video doesn’t play, go here.

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Still stressed

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My financial situation has gotten dire so I’ve been too stressed out to blog, but I figured I’d write something. My 4th of July was pretty decent, got to see some awesome fireworks. Too bad I didn’t think to bring my phone to take pictures/video. I also got a Diamond Candle (before my financial situation took a dive). I got this one:

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It’s Vanilla Cream.

Here’s the ring I found in it:
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It’s a yellowish orange color that I’m not crazy about, but at least this one fits!

I like Diamond Candles better than Prize candle because the candles are larger, but I liked the appraisal feature of Prize Candle. I can’t find out how much my ring is worth (probably not much).

Mood: Stressed
Listening to: Nothing

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Stressed out

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I’m so stressed out about these roach infestation problems because of my neighbors (as previously mentioned in an earlier entry). I went back down to the office today because I saw another one and had a talk with one of the staff. She said they will be coming back on Monday to do a more thorough extermination which means a lot of work for me. I have to remove everything from the kitchen including everything in the cupboards, closet, and move my furniture. After this is done, I have to stay out of my apartment for 3 hours. The lady in the office reserved the clubhouse (a place where residents can reserve for parties or whatever that has cable, a kitchen, and all that good stuff) so I can stay there during that time. It’s going to be so much work getting all my stuff (which is a lot) and moving it all out, but I want to get rid of these pesky things. They’re also going to do this to the upstairs apartment which is where they’re coming from. I’m just completely frustrated and disgusted about all of this. #-o

On top of all that, the police, fire trucks, and ambulance were here today because apparently a couple was fighting and the guy lit the apartment on fire and the woman jumped off a two story balcony breaking her ankle severely. Things are really going down the toilet here, it’s making me regret renewing my lease last month.

Mood: Stressed
Listening to: Wovenwar - The Mason

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Prize Candle Review

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I don’t know if you’ve seen Prize Candle advertised on Facebook, but I did. They are having a buy one get one free deal for new customers. I bought “Beach House” and “Moroccan Amber”.

I just got to my prize today in the Beach House candle.

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Each candle contains a ring valued at $5-5,000. It comes with a code inside the plastic container from the candle to enter on the Prize Candle website for appraisal. My ring appraised at $10. Here’s the ring:

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It’s small and will only fit my pinky finger. You can’t choose a ring size, what you get is what you get. For $25 a candle, I don’t think it’s worth it. The candles don’t have a very strong scent and are small. It’s rare that you’ll get an expensive ring, but that’s why the prices on the candles are so high. If you want a decent candle, you’re better off buying a Yankee.

Mood: Disappointed
Listening to: Nothing

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New medication

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My doctor finally got my insurance to approve my Pristiq. Hoping I get some positive results from it, I start it tomorrow. The Chantix isn’t working out so well, I’m still smoking. I don’t think the dose is high enough, but I am noticing some nausea when smoking.

I’m still trying to handle this breakup the best I can, but I’ve been depressed and haven’t felt like doing anything. This kind of thing is always hard on me. I know I can get through it, I just need time.

Mood: Meh
Listening to: Rammstein - Ich Tu Dir Weh

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Back on an anti-depressant

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Since my insurance won’t cover what the doctor prescribed me, I’m back on Prozac. This whole mess with my ex has made me really depressed. I decided I can’t be friends with her even though I tried. My mental health is more important and she’s going to have to understand that. I need to move on with my life, how am I going to do that with her around me all the time? I know I keep going on and on about this but it’s really messing me up.

Mood: Hurt
Listening to: Korn - Narcissistic Cannibal

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