I’ve been really cold. It’s not as cold as when I lived in Pennsylvania where it can get below 0, but in Arizona, I’m used to very high temperatures most of the year. The apartment complex I live in uses a chiller system, it’s an old system that I’m not too fond of because you can only have either air conditioning or heat, not both at the same time. They finally shut down the chiller systems today, and they have to be down for at least 2 days before the heat can be turned on. I was told it will be on Wednesday. I’ve been having to use a space heater because management wouldn’t start the process of getting the heat on until after Thanksgiving, because they say too many people would complain if the heat was on while they are preparing Thanksgiving dinner, saying it would be too hot.
My Thanksgiving was pretty dull, I just made a casserole because I didn’t want to go through all the trouble of making a huge meal just for myself. I also met some neighbors, a husband, and wife. The husband has mental illnesses which are pretty obvious and he told me about. They have knocked on my door at night before and I got irritated. Just the husband knocked on the door last night because he was out of cigarettes. I gave him a couple because he has done the same for me a few times. He started rambling on and on and not much of it made sense, so I told him I had to go back inside and he left. I’m going to have to tell him that we seem to be on different schedules. He and his wife sleep during the day and are up at night. I am up during the day and go to bed at night. I really don’t want anyone knocking on the door after dark.
The seller gave me a refund without me having to ship it back, so that’s good. I think I’ll be avoiding that site from now on, seems to be mostly cheap stuff from China. I found a lot of complaints online about them.
Today .blog domains were available for registration, pretty much any good name is a “premium” domain for thousands of dollars. So much for that. I didn’t have the money anyway, and the names I would want I can’t get. I’ll be sticking with this domain, I’ve had it since 2008. I don’t even need to renew it until 2018.
Update 11/16/16: The seller seems upset that I left negative feedback and basically wants positive feedback. They said they refunded me, but I’m not sure since the balance on my card was a bit higher than it was but says nothing in my transaction history. I don’t think they deserve positive feedback, I wanted to warn others and for them to learn not to package things so horribly.
I had a horrible experience ordering from a particular website. I won’t link to it, but it wasn’t eBay. Weeks ago, I ordered a laptop skin. The price was great so I wanted to get it. Big mistake.
Today I finally received it, and this is how it arrived:
I don’t understand why the seller would even roll it up like that, I can’t even use it because of how wrinkled it is. I opened a dispute, I may not get a full refund because I’m not paying to ship it back. It would cost more to ship back than what I originally paid. Now I know why they were selling it for that cheap. I sent this picture along with the dispute. I’ll have to wait and see what happens. I definitely will not order from that site again.
This post will be TMI, just a bit of a warning.
Last Tuesday, I came down with a nasty virus and started feeling very dizzy. The dizziness made me start throwing up a lot. I was stuck in bed for days because of how awful I felt. I wasn’t able to go down the stairs or anything. I couldn’t keep any food down either. Every day after that I thought I was better but started feeling like crap again. It’s been almost a week and I’m finally better. I had to get caught up on the cleaning this morning so maintenance can come. I had to put it off until I was well enough to clean because I wasn’t able to while I was sick. On Friday, someone from my clinic was suppposed to call and set up a time to do a home visit to help me with something. I never heard from her, maybe because my case manager told her I was sick. I’m going to see if I can get ahold of her. I may have missed the opportunity for help, but I was just too sick to have someone come over.
I seem to get sick with this same thing every year around Thanksgiving. I also catch a bad cold this time of year. I’m just glad I’m able to get back to a normal routine and am not stuck in bed.
I am very disappointed (and saddened) by America. Some may not agree, but I never thought Donald Trump was fit to be president. All the horrible things he’s said and done didn’t seem to matter to people. I definately didn’t vote for him. I’m very scared for this country.
I had an intake appointment at a new place today so I can start therapy there. The appointment was at 1:45 but the lady I had the appointment with didn’t take me back until 2. She had to ask a ton of questions and update my treatment plan. It went okay, and I even got to meet the therapist briefly. He seemed really nice and nothing like that horrible one I saw last month that made me have to go somewhere else. After that, I called the cab company for a ride home. This place is a lot farther out than the one I usually go to. They said a cab should be here between 10 minutes to an hour. By this time, it started getting really dark outside because a storm was coming. I waited for an hour and no cab came. I called the cab company back and they said they were “working on it”. I waited another half hour and still nobody. I went back in to the clinic and asked if they knew what I could do. The lady I had an appointment with told me to try calling the clinic I normally go to, so I did. By this time it started raining. They said a cab was supposed to have picked me up an hour ago, so she sent another one. One did show up but claimed they couldn’t find me and had to cancel the trip. I was really upset at this point. I was standing outside in the cold rain waiting for them. I called back again and they said they’d have a cab sent right away, so I went back outside to wait. It finally showed up so I got in. He told me the traffic was really bad because of the weather. I was so glad to get out of the rain, and by this time it was completely dark outside. During the ride, another cab kept calling and texting that they were there to pick me up. I didn’t answer because they are usually rude if I don’t show, but I had already been picked up.
I didn’t get home until after 6. That was crazy. I think if when I have an appointment and there’s a storm coming, I’m going to cancel.
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I got a new laptop, it took awhile for shipping. I wanted one with a touchscreen, but the ones I was looking at were really low end in terms of specifications. It would have cost too much. This one has everything minus the touchscreen. Can’t have everything. I’m just glad I have a computer to use.
Yesterday I had a doctor appointment. I told him about the insomnia but he didn’t really have a solution for it. He asked me why I’m not sleeping. Because I just can’t? I really don’t know what’s causing it. He took me off of the anxiety medication I was currently on (Buspar) and put me on Gabapentin. I thought that was a bit strange since it’s for seizures and nerve pain, but he said it can help with anxiety. It’s too soon to tell if it’s going to help or not. He wanted me to come back in a month.
I should go back to my regular doctor about the back pain I’m having, she seemed to think it’s a sprain, but I don’t think so. If I’ve been lying in bed for awhile it starts to really hurt and I have to get up. It mostly bothers me when I’m in bed. My mom has back problems really bad and there’s nothing much doctors can do for her. My doctor doesn’t seem to want to do anything about it and I hate going to appointments anyway.
I ended up ruining my laptop, probably because of lack of sleep. I spilled soda all over it and it quit working. I should have tried to save it (I don’t really know if I could have) but shortly after it happened, I fell asleep after being awake for 4 days. I wish my doctor would do something because being awake for days isn’t normal. He probably won’t prescribe anything because of that addiction I had to Klonopin that ruined my life. I had that laptop for 6 years, I got it for college.
Anyway, a new laptop is coming so I only have my phone for now.
I finally got ahold of my case manager, she said she would look into it, but said they usually don’t call to set something up until they have an intake appointment available. So I guess it’s just a waiting game now.
Insomnia is the worst. I’ve been awake for three days now. I really don’t know what’s causing it. The doctor increased my medications and said they should help me sleep, but they don’t. Maybe they’re having the opposite effect and are keeping me awake. I just wish I could sleep normally. I feel so tired and worn out during the day from not sleeping. Those over the counter sleep aids don’t help either. I see the doctor again later this month, I’ll ask if the medications could be keeping me awake. I always tell him I can’t sleep and he never really has an answer for it.
I’m also frustrated because I haven’t been able to get ahold of my case manager for a week regarding my referral for therapy at a different clinic. I really need to get started with therapy again, but nobody will call me back. I may have to call the supervisor. It doesn’t matter what case manager I get, they always are too hard to get ahold of and don’t call back.
I seem to be having a lot of problems with strange and creepy guys coming up to me who live in the same complex as me. When I lived in the old building, this one neighbor would always bother me by coming to the door, he didn’t seem that bad just seemed like a lonely elderly guy who didn’t really have anyone to talk to. Since I’ve moved over here, I haven’t really seen him which I guess is good. There are a couple other guys who live in another building who would keep stopping me while I was either walking to and from the store or in the store. They keep inviting me over and I would keep declining. I really don’t feel comfortable at all going to anyone’s apartment that I don’t know. They just seem really persistent and don’t seem to get it. I’m going to have to be straightforward with them and say that I’m really not interested and am not willing to come over. Then one time I was at the mailbox getting the mail, and a guy I had never seen or met before started talking to me and knew where I lived before and where I live now. I thought that was really creepy. Because of my autism and anxiety I have trouble when people just approach me like that, sometimes I’m too nice. I’m also afraid to piss them off because I don’t know how they will react or what they might do.
It seems to be getting worse, these same guys just keep approaching me. I wish they would just leave me alone. I can try to just tell them to leave me alone and just walk away. I just don’t understand why they feel the need to pester someone who clearly wants to be left alone.
Today I met with the new therapist who was taking my old therapist’s place. I was only in there for a few minutes and she really upset me, so I walked out. I started talking about what was bothering me, and she ended up just making me feel much worse. It was about something personal, so I won’t write it here. I wasn’t comfortable in her office anyway because it is 90 degrees outside with some humidity and she had a heater on. It just isn’t going to work out, so whenever I can get ahold of my case manager, I’ll have to be referred elsewhere because that’s the only therapist they have. My case manager actually forgot to set up the transportation to this appointment, and another case manager had to pick me up to get me there. Maybe that was a sign I shouldn’t have gone, lol. I don’t click with every therapist I’ve had, so this has happened before. My depression has been difficult this past week, and going in there to be upset really didn’t help anything. She seemed to really lack understanding and wanted to be judgmental when she didn’t even know me. It’s funny though that when I met her for the first time but with my old therapist, she wasn’t like that. I at least made sure transportation was set up for my doctor appointment next Tuesday.
I’m also hesitant to be referred elsewhere because the same thing could happen. I don’t know, maybe I just need time to process that my old therapist is gone and I’ll never see her again. There was only one other time I’ve walked out on a therapist like that, and that was when I was in my early 20’s. That one didn’t believe I had any illnesses and said that to my face, even though the doctor said otherwise. The whole thing just really upset me.
I’m 33 today. It’s just like any other day. When you get older, birthdays aren’t as exciting as they were when you were a kid.
I got an Amazon gift card from my mom (it came in the cupcake tin), a card from her and my dad, and I got the cake that was on sale for $5. I don’t plan on doing a whole lot today, mostly just relaxing.
I have found my new favorite app, it’s called Pacifica. It has so many features: you can keep track of your mood, thoughts, goals, audio activities for relaxation, groups, and communities. It also has a beautiful design. I’ve only been using this app for a day and I love it, I’m going to continue to use it every day. It’s a must have for those who are dealing with stress, anxiety, and depression. It’s available on the App Store and Google Play Store.
This isn’t an advertisement or anything like that, I’m just sharing a great app that I find helpful.
I was finally able to switch hosts, I wasn’t at all happy with the company I was with. There were multiple failures and migrations I wasn’t notified of, too much downtime, and support was only available late at night (here) and their website said their support is 24/7 when it clearly wasn’t. They also completely did away with shared and reseller hosting plans. I’ve already cancelled with the old host. The new hosting is paid for a year, unless I need to upgrade my plan.
There’s not much else going on, I’m waiting on maintenance to get things done around here and I have appointments to go to. My birthday is on the 8th and I have nothing planned. Since I don’t have family with me anymore, birthdays are pretty uneventful. My mom told me she sent me an Amazon gift card and I should receive that on the 1st.
I found out on Friday that my therapist is leaving. She waited until the end of our session to tell me. She explained that she weighed the pros and cons of a new job and decided to take it. I’m a bit sad by it, but therapists seem to come and go. On Thursday, I go back in to meet the new therapist who is taking over. I’ve always had a hard time finding one I connect with. If the new one doesn’t work out, I’ll have to wait for another one to become available, or I’ll be referred somewhere else. The thing I don’t like about switching therapists is I have to tell my whole story to the new one, and once I get comfortable with her, she’ll probably leave.
As for switching hosts, I’ll be doing that next week, so the site may be down for a bit. They’re just having too many problems and I will be cancelling with the old host. This will be happening on either Tuesday or Wednesday.
Every little thing has been irritating me. A bit of TMI: I start that time of month in a week and all my mental health symptoms get much worse at that time. Still having issues at the new place. What I’m most angry about is this apparent cockroach issue that’s coming from another apartment. Why can’t I just live without all this crap? It’s always something going wrong, I’m just fed up. Not only that, but the move in inspection sheet I was told I had to fill out and return before I was given my mailbox keys seems to have been pointless. Anything that is missing/broken/needs work done on was to be written down on the inspection sheet. It’s been over a week and not one thing on the list has been done. They did do something that wasn’t on the list, the transfer of my screen door and a new lock put on. The door was transferred pretty quickly but the lock took over a week for them to come put on which only took 5 minutes. The other stuff won’t take that long either. Trying to get maintenance to come do anything around here is like pulling teeth. I would think that after everything I’ve been through, they’d be more willing to try to make things better by getting stuff done, but apparently not. The manager “sincerely apologized” for the cockroach issue and said that she didn’t see or hear of any problem. Uh huh. Now I’m locked into a lease here for another year, and who knows for how much longer after that because trying to even get on a housing list is extremely difficult. Housing applications for another city opened up so I applied, but haven’t heard back. I probably wasn’t one of the ones chosen to be placed on the list. So many people need housing, but they don’t have enough vouchers for everyone. I feel bad for complaining about all this, but it’s just so crazy so you can probably imagine how frustrated and angry I am.
On another note, I have closed my other websites and will be switching hosts later this month. I’m not happy with my current host because of downtime and lack of support. The also stopped offering shared and reseller hosting altogether. I’m just going to get a shared hosting plan elsewhere. I’ve been wanting to switch hosts, but didn’t really have the time to deal with that because I was getting ready to move.
Update 8/22/16: Pest control came by to spray and bait, and a little while after he left, I saw another one on the wall. I e-mailed the manager and she sincerely apologized because there was no issue reported in this apartment previously. The problem is that people who have pest problems are not reporting it to management when they are required to do so as stated in the lease. This just causes problems for other people. They said no activity was found in my apartment, and that they were coming from another apartment. So they’re going to have to inspect the people around me to find the problem. Why would you want to live with bugs and not tell anyone? People are ridiculous.
I haven’t even lived here a week and I found a roach in the kitchen last night. I’m really mad. Pest control is coming on Monday. That’s just ridiculous. It never ends does it? I’m also still waiting on maintenance do to the things that need to be done. I wish I could live in a house and not be so close to people.
I saw that this huge 2 night NYE event is going on here and Deadmau5 will be playing. I can’t go because just general admission tickets are over $200. I wouldn’t have any way to get there anyway. Maybe if I was rich. It would be nice to see him again, but I just can’t afford it. Have to pay bills, gotta love being an adult. I remember last year I bought a ticket to the Hello Kitty festival and ended up not being able to go and was out the money. That’s what I hate about buying tickets months in advance, something can come up.
My internet bill is more than double because of the installation, which they overcharged me for. I contacted them and they said they’d give me a credit for $25 on the next bill. They told me installation was going to be $50, and I was charged $75.
It still seems like nothing is going right, especially with the new apartment. The manager said if it’s just one then don’t worry too much, but if there are more then they will have to fog and I would have to get everything prepped after I got everything unpacked. I feel like I’m cursed.