I know I’ve been ranting a lot lately, but I’m just so fed up. When I get to Arizona I have to work on getting my license. I don’t really know how I’m gonna do it with my disability, but I’m sick of it taking over my life and ruining everything. I’m tired of relying on others to drive me, I want to get around on my own. I’ve already failed the computer test in PA at least 3 times, I’m really gonna have to study the book in AZ, even though it might take awhile.

It’s hard when you have negative parents putting you down and destroying your self confidence. I’ve brought up that I wanted to get my license and my mother said “that’s never gonna happen”. Yeah, that’s really encouraging. If I wasn’t raised in such a negative environment as a kid I probably wouldn’t be so negative about things today. I’ve been put down most of my life, no wonder I feel like I can’t do anything.

I’m having second thoughts about moving. This has been my home my whole life and is where all the family is. If I stay here, I probably won’t see my parents again. Plane tickets are just too expensive. Once I move out there, I won’t be able to change my mind and move back. I just don’t know, but I have to make a final decision soon.

My parents and every dentist I’ve been to have always told me to stop drinking so much soda. It’s better than all the alcohol I used to drink in the past. It has probably contributed to my teeth being bad, but at least I’m staying sober.

14944.) I try not be selfish and always thinking about others, but when is it my turn to have what I want?

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14933.) Is everything actually worth it, I fuck up a lot and I feel that whats the point anymore, whats the fucking point. I'm on a downward slope and it feels like its never going to stop. I just want it to stop. To finish. To end.

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Don’t know why Mac users are always quick to bash the PC. If you have the money for one, good for you, but not everyone does. PC’s are a lot more affordable. I’m able to go online, pay my bills and do what I need on my PC just fine. Just because you own one doesn’t make you better than anyone else, it’s just a computer.

I don’t get the “You look familiar, have we met?” pickup line. I’ve never met or been to where they are from. Maybe it would make more sense if it was from someone in the same city or state.

I placed an order on one website, and then ended up finding something else on another website I liked better. I think it’s stupid they won’t cancel orders, I don’t see why they can’t if it hasn’t been shipped yet. Now I have to figure out how to send it back.

Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t think it’s acceptable to make someone with painful cavities wait almost a month to get them fixed. They’ve been really bothering me, but I have to wait until next Monday. They just take on way more patients than they can handle, so people that really need to get in sooner can’t.

I was emptying the dish washer earlier today (or yesterday, whatever) and putting dishes away, when a heavy glass lid from the cupboard above me flew out and hit me right on the head. That hurt. Several hours later, my head still hurts.

I’ve been so stressed out lately that I forgot to pay the rent. I’ve always paid it on time since I’ve lived here, it just completely slipped my mind. I pay all my bills online and use my debit card to pay for everything. The rent is the only thing I have to write out a check for, it’s easy to forget. I hope the landlord will cut me a break since this is the first time it’s been late, but I could face a late fee. Blah.

I’ve been looking at the bus routes and everything on the Valley Metro site for where I’m going to move. There are so many, bus, light rail, expresses, I have no idea how I will ever figure it all out. I looked up some cab companies, that would probably be my best bet until I’ve lived out there for awhile. It’s really strange that cabs here in Erie are more expensive than those in Phoenix.